Y HALO THER
What? Meshell doesn't take intermittent rests from LJ at all. Month long breaks? NEVAR! Not when she can tack a few days on top of that.
Now what has kept her away from her belovéd for so long? My jobby. And not in a way that I am ashamed of (e.g. job hunts), rather I've decided to put my dancing shoes on and stop playing the wallflower. I'm not sure of the exact impetus, but I do remember a few factors that stuck in my head as little hints of wisdom from gurus on site. As in the job site.
I won't name them, but I will give them pet names as I am sure that would not only please them but honor their privacy: Cookie, Lunch, and Banana. Not too exciting, but I'm quite the foodie, aren't I (I know all the best places to cater at work, and now I'm known as the one to go to for restaurant recommendations)? Cookie is a Southern Gentleman(tm) to the T with a voice for story telling and knows more about Excel than I do -- not that hard, but this guy helped develop the product you use for your silly spreadsheets. Lunch is a male, balding, tall, cuddly version of me (I say balding because he ensures we all know in his many jokes). He truly cares, has a flair for silliness not dampened by the General Energineering Lack Of Personality, and favors zee gaming to zee flaming (yeah, ok?). Banana? Yes, he's the goofy grandpa we all we wish we had... eh, some do, but I wish I had this one! He brings me slightly green bananas blessed by monks and offers up thought-provoking conversations.
I don't really want to go into the singular events or the idioms that caught me so off guard; it would ruin the enormous changes in me that have occurred in a single month. And I am still afraid of change! :X
Let's just leave it at this -- I am reinvigorated and without (most) fears. I've come to see Meshell, KittyNinja, all the little monikers are the same person, and ok with it all. Yes, it's a bunch of babble on my pysche, but I'm quite excited that I can approach most tasks without fearing knowing that I can do it if I simply try, question, use my intuition, and speak up. Hah, sounds like the most obvious thing.
Moving on. I am quite excited about work because I have really stepped it up and with that I have come to care more! I want to get involved more than ever, and with that curtain drawn back, it's like a clear path to success. And I'm pretty excited! Being someone's admin is basically being ME! I notice little things, picky, slightly OCPD, and I like to make people happy! Every morning on the way to work, I think "What would Zee Bahss need to know about today that he is too busy to think about?" This man is dealing with big business and shouldn't have to deal with a silly, inept girly... And I'm not that, so why act it due to fear and laziness?
NTY, guize. No Thank You.
You see this is a chance to learn to focus, to learn, and to excel. It's just like school, except the grades are more figurative, both in personal growth and financially ;D In all honesty since I have gain focus on doing my job better than the day before and working for myself, I've become happier, stronger, and more stable than I have felt in ages. It's significantly affecting my personal life as well. Not afraid to speak my mind, go after what I want (Ooooh!! He's interested in dinner later this week!<3), and develop healthier habits.
Blah di blah. I could go on jilling on about how much I have grown in the past month, but I'm not interested. I would rather get up from this computer machine and cuddle with Sam.
Oh, and for a quick update on mah lifey: I went to a couple concerts, started reading Women Who Run With Wolves, and finally mailed out Mike's D&D books (Tom's brother). I'm considering sending him an email, but I doubt he's interested in hearing from me. Part of me thinks it would be interpreted incorrectly, and I wouldn't want to open old wounds (are there anymore? Doesn't shit eventually scab over after time?). So here's to that.
Finally learned to drink beer... then went and developed a love for LoneStar Beer. WHAT WAS I THINKING?!
Now what has kept her away from her belovéd for so long? My jobby. And not in a way that I am ashamed of (e.g. job hunts), rather I've decided to put my dancing shoes on and stop playing the wallflower. I'm not sure of the exact impetus, but I do remember a few factors that stuck in my head as little hints of wisdom from gurus on site. As in the job site.
I won't name them, but I will give them pet names as I am sure that would not only please them but honor their privacy: Cookie, Lunch, and Banana. Not too exciting, but I'm quite the foodie, aren't I (I know all the best places to cater at work, and now I'm known as the one to go to for restaurant recommendations)? Cookie is a Southern Gentleman(tm) to the T with a voice for story telling and knows more about Excel than I do -- not that hard, but this guy helped develop the product you use for your silly spreadsheets. Lunch is a male, balding, tall, cuddly version of me (I say balding because he ensures we all know in his many jokes). He truly cares, has a flair for silliness not dampened by the General Energineering Lack Of Personality, and favors zee gaming to zee flaming (yeah, ok?). Banana? Yes, he's the goofy grandpa we all we wish we had... eh, some do, but I wish I had this one! He brings me slightly green bananas blessed by monks and offers up thought-provoking conversations.
I don't really want to go into the singular events or the idioms that caught me so off guard; it would ruin the enormous changes in me that have occurred in a single month. And I am still afraid of change! :X
Let's just leave it at this -- I am reinvigorated and without (most) fears. I've come to see Meshell, KittyNinja, all the little monikers are the same person, and ok with it all. Yes, it's a bunch of babble on my pysche, but I'm quite excited that I can approach most tasks without fearing knowing that I can do it if I simply try, question, use my intuition, and speak up. Hah, sounds like the most obvious thing.
Moving on. I am quite excited about work because I have really stepped it up and with that I have come to care more! I want to get involved more than ever, and with that curtain drawn back, it's like a clear path to success. And I'm pretty excited! Being someone's admin is basically being ME! I notice little things, picky, slightly OCPD, and I like to make people happy! Every morning on the way to work, I think "What would Zee Bahss need to know about today that he is too busy to think about?" This man is dealing with big business and shouldn't have to deal with a silly, inept girly... And I'm not that, so why act it due to fear and laziness?
NTY, guize. No Thank You.
You see this is a chance to learn to focus, to learn, and to excel. It's just like school, except the grades are more figurative, both in personal growth and financially ;D In all honesty since I have gain focus on doing my job better than the day before and working for myself, I've become happier, stronger, and more stable than I have felt in ages. It's significantly affecting my personal life as well. Not afraid to speak my mind, go after what I want (Ooooh!! He's interested in dinner later this week!<3), and develop healthier habits.
Blah di blah. I could go on jilling on about how much I have grown in the past month, but I'm not interested. I would rather get up from this computer machine and cuddle with Sam.
Oh, and for a quick update on mah lifey: I went to a couple concerts, started reading Women Who Run With Wolves, and finally mailed out Mike's D&D books (Tom's brother). I'm considering sending him an email, but I doubt he's interested in hearing from me. Part of me thinks it would be interpreted incorrectly, and I wouldn't want to open old wounds (are there anymore? Doesn't shit eventually scab over after time?). So here's to that.
Finally learned to drink beer... then went and developed a love for LoneStar Beer. WHAT WAS I THINKING?!