Hmmmm
Yes, he continues to creep into my thoughts. I bet you all forgot about him. I thought I did.
Man, I feel like such a jackass having lost Tom as a friend. I don't know where or how he is doing, and it's not some bygone want for his affection... rather...
I just remember all the great things we did and how strongly we resonated with one another. And we both wanted each other. I had that and will again with another, but I wish I could just tell him how he has kept me strong, that I love him for the best friend he was when I didn't know (these past few years), and that when I think on him, I smile. I dunno, part of me thinks he would just smile and be happy that I told him that. Why do I think that? Why do I still hold him in such high regard? He left with such honor, which allowed me to still feel his friendship. I guess that's the thing. Honor.
Just kinda rambling because this song reminded me of how he would have wanted me to feel in the end. And I do, I do. :(
p.s. Last I heard he was on tour on some boat in the Pacific. I could reach out, but damn... I dunno. I would risk sullying the memory as he could very well hate me. I much rather think he is proud and happy for me. Tom was the best at showing me that he cared even when he should have thrown a bottle at my head. I just miss that laugh and those eyes. I miss my best friend. Ah, nostalgia.
Man, I feel like such a jackass having lost Tom as a friend. I don't know where or how he is doing, and it's not some bygone want for his affection... rather...
I just remember all the great things we did and how strongly we resonated with one another. And we both wanted each other. I had that and will again with another, but I wish I could just tell him how he has kept me strong, that I love him for the best friend he was when I didn't know (these past few years), and that when I think on him, I smile. I dunno, part of me thinks he would just smile and be happy that I told him that. Why do I think that? Why do I still hold him in such high regard? He left with such honor, which allowed me to still feel his friendship. I guess that's the thing. Honor.
Just kinda rambling because this song reminded me of how he would have wanted me to feel in the end. And I do, I do. :(
p.s. Last I heard he was on tour on some boat in the Pacific. I could reach out, but damn... I dunno. I would risk sullying the memory as he could very well hate me. I much rather think he is proud and happy for me. Tom was the best at showing me that he cared even when he should have thrown a bottle at my head. I just miss that laugh and those eyes. I miss my best friend. Ah, nostalgia.