It's the day after
Yes, yes, happy birthday to me. And boy, was it ever! I had a lot of well wishes with aimeegomeow winner the First Text ZOMGZ Award that morning. It was great.
But that's not really why I wanted to post. See, my older sister and I had a very candid conversation Saturday afternoon. In it, she was so shocked and happy to hear how at peace I was (of course, I had a great night Friday night and was quite pleased with myself), and she brought up a point about my relationship with D. She stated that I used him to learn more about myself, in that I stayed with him longer than I knew I should because I needed to truly believe that I deserved more. That no matter what we have in common, there are basic tenenments that I require in a relationship. And I agree with her in a way -- I stayed longer than I really wanted, and I did learn a lot about myself from the relationship.
So you could say I am a lot happier after this past week. Knowing my boundaries and being able to draw a line in the sand without getting uncontrollably angry is a plus. I've just grown tired of people trodding on me when I am a really freaking awesome person. No, I am not special nor do I have a megalomaniac's sense of self, but I'm convinced that I am a bad ass person and that others should enjoy it, not get so wrapped up in "being accepted or looking cool" that they gotta be jerks about it. But these are all engineers who lack real imagination.
I don't really have anything. I am going to rape Starr this weekend with pictures of her azn'ness.
I so want to nap right now.
But that's not really why I wanted to post. See, my older sister and I had a very candid conversation Saturday afternoon. In it, she was so shocked and happy to hear how at peace I was (of course, I had a great night Friday night and was quite pleased with myself), and she brought up a point about my relationship with D. She stated that I used him to learn more about myself, in that I stayed with him longer than I knew I should because I needed to truly believe that I deserved more. That no matter what we have in common, there are basic tenenments that I require in a relationship. And I agree with her in a way -- I stayed longer than I really wanted, and I did learn a lot about myself from the relationship.
So you could say I am a lot happier after this past week. Knowing my boundaries and being able to draw a line in the sand without getting uncontrollably angry is a plus. I've just grown tired of people trodding on me when I am a really freaking awesome person. No, I am not special nor do I have a megalomaniac's sense of self, but I'm convinced that I am a bad ass person and that others should enjoy it, not get so wrapped up in "being accepted or looking cool" that they gotta be jerks about it. But these are all engineers who lack real imagination.
I don't really have anything. I am going to rape Starr this weekend with pictures of her azn'ness.
I so want to nap right now.