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I have nothing to laugh about, but I think I'm going to laugh, anyway. There are sometimes when you feel so pent up and sad that all you can do is laugh. Is laugh and laugh and laugh at nothing at all. To pretend you're having fun all on your own to keep yourself from retreating into a little hole sitting in the back of your mind.
There are times when you realize that sometimes all your trying is absolutely pointless. When you come to terms with the fact that you are just as fake and two-faced as everyone else in this wretched little town of white trash and ignorance.
Laughing is so much better than cutting, because it's easier to hide behind. People may think you're strange, eccentric, or maybe even insane; but they won't be hurt by you laughing. They won't have to see the ugly scars it leaves behind, because all of those are covered in flesh and blood.
Someone I know came into work the other day. I think he noticed when I looked at all those little slashes on his forearm. Fresh ones, not scars, crosscrossing and weaving. He tried to hide them, and then he laughed. He laughed and chuckled. I guess I realized that laughing isn't really all that easy to hide behind, after all, and after he left I wanted to cry.
I'm so stupid and slow.
There are times when you realize that sometimes all your trying is absolutely pointless. When you come to terms with the fact that you are just as fake and two-faced as everyone else in this wretched little town of white trash and ignorance.
Laughing is so much better than cutting, because it's easier to hide behind. People may think you're strange, eccentric, or maybe even insane; but they won't be hurt by you laughing. They won't have to see the ugly scars it leaves behind, because all of those are covered in flesh and blood.
Someone I know came into work the other day. I think he noticed when I looked at all those little slashes on his forearm. Fresh ones, not scars, crosscrossing and weaving. He tried to hide them, and then he laughed. He laughed and chuckled. I guess I realized that laughing isn't really all that easy to hide behind, after all, and after he left I wanted to cry.
I'm so stupid and slow.