time warp
I am stuck inside this prison and im trying to get out.
So its been like 6 months or something like that so by writing in this im probably doing the equivolent of yelling into an empty well, but that is rather comforting to know.. to some extent.
I live alone.
I have many fixations on killing time and space.
I am searching for stimulation and alleviation in my life.
I feel that I need to stop being such a fucking deadbeat and get on with my goals.
I dont feel very justified in my life because of the way I am treated by those who are close to me.
I feel as if I am just another resource to be tapped, nothing more, nothing less.
I think that there are complicated solutions to most of my complicated problem.
I need help from people who cannot help me and that makes me agreesive.
Either fuck me, pay me, or challenge me,.. but stop trying to "get" me.
Im fucking sick of it.
Im fucking sick inside.
So its been like 6 months or something like that so by writing in this im probably doing the equivolent of yelling into an empty well, but that is rather comforting to know.. to some extent.
I live alone.
I have many fixations on killing time and space.
I am searching for stimulation and alleviation in my life.
I feel that I need to stop being such a fucking deadbeat and get on with my goals.
I dont feel very justified in my life because of the way I am treated by those who are close to me.
I feel as if I am just another resource to be tapped, nothing more, nothing less.
I think that there are complicated solutions to most of my complicated problem.
I need help from people who cannot help me and that makes me agreesive.
Either fuck me, pay me, or challenge me,.. but stop trying to "get" me.
Im fucking sick of it.
Im fucking sick inside.