time has passed, things have changed, but leopards never change their spots
it's that time of the year again - the point when your wallets are empty, and the wishlist is aplenty!!!
alot has happened in the past month. i've finally swapped jobs. and everything work related is looking up, despite the messy exit i caused. yikes, but that's a tale for another time. i've got to say that honestly speaking, i am happy where i am. but in truth, i still wanna take that jetplane to that destination, to pursue something i really think is worth my time, effort and money, but alas, the parental units have vehemently disapproved. it was such a rollercoaster game. yes than no than maybe than yes than no. but ultimately the final call? it's a no. despite being accepted to whatever i applied for. which leaves me crest-fallen. another missed opportunity? how many more will i need to face before im resigned to the fact that my accommodating and lack of fighting spirit nature is the major downfall of my entire life? to eke out a living is one thing, to carry out a passion, a vocation, rather than a job/career is a totally different aspect of life already. perhaps this may sound mundane or just plain confusing but it works for me. currently.
oh yes, and recently i've collected some new friends, and have been leading the alternative lifestyle. i mean, i've experienced it before, but i've never had my eyes totally open before either. i guess i've always been walking around half blind. it's confusing my inner being and i don't really know who i am anymore, but i do cherish these new experiences. i think there's lots to say but at this moment of time i'm just going to let it be and go with whatever flow comes my way. that sounded like a menstruation connotation. i shall re-phrase. i'll just let myself be swept up in whichever way the tide takes me. a pee connotation? not so much. =p
alot has happened in the past month. i've finally swapped jobs. and everything work related is looking up, despite the messy exit i caused. yikes, but that's a tale for another time. i've got to say that honestly speaking, i am happy where i am. but in truth, i still wanna take that jetplane to that destination, to pursue something i really think is worth my time, effort and money, but alas, the parental units have vehemently disapproved. it was such a rollercoaster game. yes than no than maybe than yes than no. but ultimately the final call? it's a no. despite being accepted to whatever i applied for. which leaves me crest-fallen. another missed opportunity? how many more will i need to face before im resigned to the fact that my accommodating and lack of fighting spirit nature is the major downfall of my entire life? to eke out a living is one thing, to carry out a passion, a vocation, rather than a job/career is a totally different aspect of life already. perhaps this may sound mundane or just plain confusing but it works for me. currently.
oh yes, and recently i've collected some new friends, and have been leading the alternative lifestyle. i mean, i've experienced it before, but i've never had my eyes totally open before either. i guess i've always been walking around half blind. it's confusing my inner being and i don't really know who i am anymore, but i do cherish these new experiences. i think there's lots to say but at this moment of time i'm just going to let it be and go with whatever flow comes my way. that sounded like a menstruation connotation. i shall re-phrase. i'll just let myself be swept up in whichever way the tide takes me. a pee connotation? not so much. =p