Life can suck
U know, i really dont understand life, or much in this life. Like relationships for one. I dont know if ill ever be able to fully understand one. Everything can seem sooo perfect and happy, and then all of a sudden something goes wrong. That wrong thing then goes on to fuck up the rest of ur year. It sux. Renee has been my everything for about four months now. I wouldnt take back nething in the relationship, except the arguments. Arguments are bad, i dont even understand why i get into them when i care about her like i do. I would do nething for her but for some odd reason that doesnt keep me from getting upset with her sometimes. Maybe its just the long distance thing, i truely believe that once shes back everything will be better, but how can i know for sure? All i know now is everything is shit, and i really dont know how to go about fixing it. Im just a bad b/f. She is one of the best g/f's and girls in the world, and maybe i just deserve this shit for putting her thru hell. I dont know, all i know is that i do love her and want nothing better to be with her, i dont want us to break up, i would do nething to make it better, but im not sure if that is enough*