if i brought you down, if i cause you to drown
i made a mistake. i know what i did wrong and im so sorry for it. youll never know how sorry i am. i hate myself for it. i hate me, i hate everything i say wrong, i hate everything i say, i hate being out of place, i hate having to think about what i said all the time, i hate knowing that you hate me, i hate not talking to you, i hate being alone, i hate open doors, i hate when im mad, i hate when i say something to make you mad, i hate when i say something to make you upset, i hate when i say something to make you not like me, i hate when im not with you, i hate when you say your not beautiful, i hate when you say i am. but you are beautiful, even when your frustrated and i like everything about you and i dont know how someone like you could like someone like me and i still hope you do. i dont want feel like i feel right now at all. but i want to make you happy and i would do anything for you at anytime, anywhere. im writing this in my journal because i want everyone to know how much you mean to me, meghan sheerin, i heart you. i never meant to hurt you like that and im so sorry. im so sorry...