thoughts on spirituality
I struggle with religion and spirituality.
I mean, I'm Pagan, and I feel inspired by the Earth and life. I've tried time and time again to do journeys or go into trance, and I fall asleep. I occasionally do spells, and I acknowledge the goddesses on my alter.
I WISH I could feel more in touch with my gods. I don't feel particularly bad about it most of the time, and I have faith in general that things will go as they need to, but I don't tend towards ritual and I'm terrible at noticing things like ley lines or energy shifts.
Sometimes I wonder if there's something wrong with me, or what. I guess I feel somewhat disenchanted by the pagan community.
I feel strangely envious of people who have some conviction, or a gift of this sort, or even just faith. I don't know why it's something I crave and yet seem blocked from. I don't often think about it. But once in a while I feel envious of someone else's faith. I guess I feel generally satisfied with my positive thinking and meditation. Sometimes I wish there was something more than this casual relationship with religion, but I just don't know how to go about it and I feel... skeptical that it's for me beyond what I do now.
I mean, I'm Pagan, and I feel inspired by the Earth and life. I've tried time and time again to do journeys or go into trance, and I fall asleep. I occasionally do spells, and I acknowledge the goddesses on my alter.
I WISH I could feel more in touch with my gods. I don't feel particularly bad about it most of the time, and I have faith in general that things will go as they need to, but I don't tend towards ritual and I'm terrible at noticing things like ley lines or energy shifts.
Sometimes I wonder if there's something wrong with me, or what. I guess I feel somewhat disenchanted by the pagan community.
I feel strangely envious of people who have some conviction, or a gift of this sort, or even just faith. I don't know why it's something I crave and yet seem blocked from. I don't often think about it. But once in a while I feel envious of someone else's faith. I guess I feel generally satisfied with my positive thinking and meditation. Sometimes I wish there was something more than this casual relationship with religion, but I just don't know how to go about it and I feel... skeptical that it's for me beyond what I do now.