Jan 28, 2005 16:51
Today is a million miles an hour feeling like I’m careening around on a track that is too twisty and turny for my tastes. Today is accomplishing much in as short of a time as possible, but still having so much left over that I feel like I’ll always be a step behind. Today is frustration with cast members who can’t make rehearsals because they are just too busy when I haven’t had a night at home totally free of work/school/volunteer stuff in ages - and I’m not going to count my gorgeous days in Seattle because I was, after all, not at home in that basic sense, even if I was at home in many other ways.
Today is having a soothing voice over the phone calm me…but it’s also having all sorts of questions popping up to the surface about life and motivation and destination. She tells me just to go with it and enjoy and be happy - and to a certain extent I am. But there are so many layers to this life that I’m trying to lead and I’m still rolling from the intensity of everything. I love it, this feeling, but I need to figure out what it means in relation to everything else.
Och. There I go overanalyzing everything again.
Today is almost over. I can’t wait to go home, rehearse this damn play, get these women out of my house - *grin* - and call my girl.
artivism,
mental wellness,
living