Sorry so sad :o(
Things are not going the way I wish. For the first time in a while I feel like just giving up on EVERYTHING. I am so tired of trying to be the person that many people think I am and others think I am incapable of becoming. I don’t want to be nice anymore even though many of you are thinking when have I ever. My answer to that is more than you know. I don’t want to be the one that everyone can count on to be there when things start to fall apart because in the end those people are never there when I seem to need them. This doesn’t apply to all but a good majority of those I know. Reading a few other LJ’s I can see that some others are feeling the way I feel right now. To those of you who understand me I don’t even need to say thank you because we both know that that is what being a friend means, the “being.” Being apart of each others lives and hopefully making a great impact. When and if the time came for you to part that you were both a better person and grateful for all time invested. It is ok for others to doubt me but when I am the one doubting then I truly have lost all hope. I think what I could have easily said and much shorter is F**K this SH*T.