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I need a change.
I've become something that I never, ever wanted to be.
A GODDAMNED HOE.
This makes no sense.
I'm not the girl that guys call when they want some head, dammit.
This is not who I am.
Or, better yet, this is not who I want to be.
DeMo...you make me better.
Thank God for this beautiful man in my bed that loves me for me.
I feel so bad because in the back of my mind...I want Ben.
But Ben and I would never work. At all.
No use in trying to convince myself otherwise.
Fuck.
This week should be better.
I hope.
I've become something that I never, ever wanted to be.
A GODDAMNED HOE.
This makes no sense.
I'm not the girl that guys call when they want some head, dammit.
This is not who I am.
Or, better yet, this is not who I want to be.
DeMo...you make me better.
Thank God for this beautiful man in my bed that loves me for me.
I feel so bad because in the back of my mind...I want Ben.
But Ben and I would never work. At all.
No use in trying to convince myself otherwise.
Fuck.
This week should be better.
I hope.