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So I'm actively avoiding making icons for bsg_challenge and posting instead. After avoiding posting all day. 'Cause I make sense. Sure.
trip to my dentist - things you didn't want to know:
I knocked a front tooth out (ALL the way out) when I was 9. It was, of course, an adult tooth. So they put it back and did a root canal. (I discovered novacaine/numbness freaks the shit out of me. To this day, when they've had to do a filling I haven't let them give me any. Yes, the temporary pain is better than the several hours of deadness. No, this isn't some kind of perverse "i like the pain" thing - or this particular type of pain isn't a kind I like, in any case. It's just preferable to the alternative, omg.)
Said tooth has done well and stayed in for about 16 years. It's finally breaking down and will have to be replaced with an implant. I found out yesterday afternoon that this process will take a year. No clue how much money it'll take (though the "temporary" tooth (which will fit in my mouth kind of like a retainer and have to be taken in and out when I eat and sleep - blech! - AND FOR A YEAR! ZOMG!) will be about $423.), but I know my dental insurance will only cover about 1/2 the cost.
To compound all this, it's going to be much more difficult due to my hyper-phobia about novacaine. It's not the needles, as stated above. If I can't get my MD to prescribe something strong enough to keep me calm enough to let them give me the novacaine in the first place and something else to take *immediately* afterward to knock my ass out until it's worn off, then they'll have to do IV sedation and a different doctor will have to do the procedure. And because this isn't an actual physical allergy but a psychological issue? Am being looked at as a freak who is making this more difficult than it has to be. The dentist has obviously never had to live with OCD and anxiety disorder. (Please note, he was very nice, and the last bit is probably entirely my own insecurities talking out loud, but still. *I* feel that way about me, and I have to live with it, so I *know* - I can't fathom how someone else who doesn't could get it.)
And I missed work today because I was running late, and since I had to leave early yesterday for the dental appt. I was better off missing an entire day than clocking in 2 minutes late. Because that makes sense. Stupid policies. But since I was in desperate need for lots of sleep and have been running a fever of about 99 (give or take a point or eight) it works out just as well.
finally, meme, because I need cheering up (snurched from comedownstairs):
Leave a list of fictional characters in your journal that you would love to get a message from. It is readers mission, should they choose to accept it, to write you an in-character "letter" from a character on that list. The message can be anything, it could be a love note or even fandom related etc. Feel free to comment on each other's letters. And multiple takes on one character are welcome.
1. Kara Thrace
2. Lee Adama
3. Sharon "Boomer" Valerii (the original)
4. Helo
6. John Crichton
7. Aeryn Sun
8. Vala
9. Daniel Jackson
10. Tenth Doctor
11. Rose Tyler
12. Jack Harkness
13. Tempe Brennan
14. Angela Montenegro
15. Josh Lyman
16. Sam Seaborn
17. Donna Moss
18. CJ Cregg
19. Kaylee Frye
20. Inara Serra
21. Mal Reynolds
22. River Tam
23. Tara (BTVS)
I'm gonna go paint Warhammer models.
trip to my dentist - things you didn't want to know:
I knocked a front tooth out (ALL the way out) when I was 9. It was, of course, an adult tooth. So they put it back and did a root canal. (I discovered novacaine/numbness freaks the shit out of me. To this day, when they've had to do a filling I haven't let them give me any. Yes, the temporary pain is better than the several hours of deadness. No, this isn't some kind of perverse "i like the pain" thing - or this particular type of pain isn't a kind I like, in any case. It's just preferable to the alternative, omg.)
Said tooth has done well and stayed in for about 16 years. It's finally breaking down and will have to be replaced with an implant. I found out yesterday afternoon that this process will take a year. No clue how much money it'll take (though the "temporary" tooth (which will fit in my mouth kind of like a retainer and have to be taken in and out when I eat and sleep - blech! - AND FOR A YEAR! ZOMG!) will be about $423.), but I know my dental insurance will only cover about 1/2 the cost.
To compound all this, it's going to be much more difficult due to my hyper-phobia about novacaine. It's not the needles, as stated above. If I can't get my MD to prescribe something strong enough to keep me calm enough to let them give me the novacaine in the first place and something else to take *immediately* afterward to knock my ass out until it's worn off, then they'll have to do IV sedation and a different doctor will have to do the procedure. And because this isn't an actual physical allergy but a psychological issue? Am being looked at as a freak who is making this more difficult than it has to be. The dentist has obviously never had to live with OCD and anxiety disorder. (Please note, he was very nice, and the last bit is probably entirely my own insecurities talking out loud, but still. *I* feel that way about me, and I have to live with it, so I *know* - I can't fathom how someone else who doesn't could get it.)
And I missed work today because I was running late, and since I had to leave early yesterday for the dental appt. I was better off missing an entire day than clocking in 2 minutes late. Because that makes sense. Stupid policies. But since I was in desperate need for lots of sleep and have been running a fever of about 99 (give or take a point or eight) it works out just as well.
finally, meme, because I need cheering up (snurched from comedownstairs):
Leave a list of fictional characters in your journal that you would love to get a message from. It is readers mission, should they choose to accept it, to write you an in-character "letter" from a character on that list. The message can be anything, it could be a love note or even fandom related etc. Feel free to comment on each other's letters. And multiple takes on one character are welcome.
1. Kara Thrace
2. Lee Adama
3. Sharon "Boomer" Valerii (the original)
4. Helo
6. John Crichton
7. Aeryn Sun
8. Vala
9. Daniel Jackson
10. Tenth Doctor
11. Rose Tyler
12. Jack Harkness
13. Tempe Brennan
14. Angela Montenegro
15. Josh Lyman
16. Sam Seaborn
17. Donna Moss
18. CJ Cregg
19. Kaylee Frye
20. Inara Serra
21. Mal Reynolds
22. River Tam
23. Tara (BTVS)
I'm gonna go paint Warhammer models.