Kiss of Death - 4th chapter - Eat Me, Drink Me
I'm back and bringing you another chapter of Kiss of Death! Enjoy.
And remember: Hellsing and it's characters DO NOT belong to me! I have no profit from this. I made it just for fun. Thank you for understanding.
Just to let you know: I don't give a flying shit about your opinions when it comes to religion! So if you don't like my (and Omen's) opinion on it don't read this or atleast don't tell me how God is awesome and will save us all (yeah, right)! So if you're a believer and sensitive when it comes to religion, please, don't continue reading this!!! Thank you.
IMPORTANT!!!
I really don't know what will happens in next few days because today my teacher informed me that I'm failing at Art and I'll have to tell that to my mother this week. She's kinda sensitive when it comes to her children and grades - wanna have perfect children no matter what... And because I'm in art school this is kinda bad... So I really don't know if she will let me even near the Pc or my notebook (where I write all my fanfics) so I have no idea when I'll update. So wish me good luck with mom and grades (I so hate that teacher - and she hates me! Dx). Someone, please, call Alucard so I could get rid of that monster called Vifon-sensei (long story). Alucard looks like an angel next to her!! Why do I have such a teacher in the most important class?!?! Someone sure hates me up there... -_-
I stayed still for a moment, listening, hoping, praying. But nothing came from the darkness and I let myself breath. But it wouldn't surprise me if he appeared to me after I convinced myself that I'm alone in this cold dark dungeon that my God called probably "home". I can't stand the cold that is crawling on the floor any longer and sit on the chair bringing my legs up. Much better.
I wonder how the world looks when looking thought his sunglasses and so I take them into my hand to try them on. Red, everything I see is red. Millions and millions of different shades of red and just now I realize how everything around him spins around the blood. It is like waking up from a dream - because just now I realize that this God, my God, is a killer with a killing instinct. Or maybe I knew this all along, just didn't want to admit it. But isn't this just the reason why I am drown to him? Yes. I worship him because of the killer he is - because I can feel alive when he is killing me.
And just now I realize how much I miss those lips against my neck, those teeth like knifes cutting my skin, that tongue licking my blood... I put the sunglasses down on their proper place and wait. And as I wait I let my mind wonder until I forget the differences between reality and dreams.
"Wake up." I opened my eyes but it's still pretty much dark. "Master Integra's looking everywhere for you." Integra? Who is- wait a minute. I move my head to the side and as my heartbeat goes faster I know a God is standing next to me, watching me and smiling like a madman. When this dream started? "Master is royally pissed off at you." He informs me as he takes the bottle of vine to put some into a glass. And just now I notice my pentagram. It was lying behind the bottle making it almost impossible to see it. Yes, that is when we met - that night when he saved my life. He really is a God.
"Kiss me." I hear myself whisper and in that moment his red, red eyes rest upon me. I find myself praying to the devil - that this beautiful, dark and dangerous creature never lays his eyes on anybody else just me. My hands wonder to the bandage around my neck that hides the evidence about life and death and the thin line between them. And how I love standing on this line - to know how easily can be a life crushed to pieces. The bandage is left forgotten in the moment it is swallowed by the fog.
"Kiss me..." I find myself speaking again. "...like only a vampire can." I see his lips - those sinful lips - move and form a smile shoving those sharp teeth. "Well aren't you just beautiful - shoving me your neck like that and begging for death." He lowered himself to my level, his hand caressing my skin where the veins where. I let my head fell backwards my eyes landing on the darkness that was suppose to be the ceiling. "But I would have to be mad to say no to such a tasty little prey."
My eyes widened at those words - those words that were like the sweetest poison and I didn't mind dying, even went that far to want more of this poison. A gasp which escaped my lips broke the silence because of those lips that were now resting upon my skin - how I dreamed of this moment - teeth cutting it letting blood escape and run free and into his mouth. I let my arms wrap around him bringing him even closer making sure I won't cross the line and forget about life. How foolish I could be - holding a reaper tightly as if my life depends on him.
Maybe I should admit - I don't mind dying like this - in his arms and by his lips - but I shall not do such a thing because then I would have to admit I was never good enough to have a name as Hellsing. And then, then this whole trip to London was pointless and I was a fool even before the beginning.
I gasp once more as his teeth dig deeper into my flesh. "God, yes!" I hear myself cry and this is the first time I spoke the word God without any negative meaning - yes, I am an anti-christ and before I met Alucard I didn't believe in God or Gods because there is nothing pure and so powerful in this or in any other world. And if there is a God other then Alucard - it is a fool and a weakling. I can feel Alucard lick my skin clean letting any evidence disappear.
"Do you know the price of loving a monster?" He asked his eyes never leaving me. I stayed in silence my vision still a blur. "What do you want in return? Because if it is love what you want then I must say that the closest thing to it is ripping your heart out of your chest and eating it." He spoke letting me know just what can happen to me in the end. "That is fine with me." I whispered when I could see shapes and colours clearly again. Our eyes met and I knew we made a deal. How careless I was at that time...