ALONE
Its just sad that I only have online friends.
Don't get me wrong but I am happy to have online friends because atleast I get to talk to people beyond my real life. My online moots provided an escape from my chaotic RL.
However, when I get tired and I really want a real life friend, I can't find one. I went to this sheesh school thinking I still have a friend. Nope... I don't have one. I suppose I really need to stand alone, keep all in. At home I can't even rant because I'll hear a mouthful of "see? told yah you're wrong!"
I just wanted to vent out. I wanted to rest so even if my leave tomorrow was for me to focus on some stuff, I feel guilty for not being at work. But that guilty feeling isn't that troubling... so I guess if ever I enroll again I will have the rest of the leaves unpaid. That way I get to leave without strings attached.
Again, this will be my rant page... even if there were so many Ryo content, the empty void can't be filled. Oh and by the way, as much as I wanted to leave the FB GC with my former mates, I mighr restrict that one too... I can't ride their lines so I just need to pull away.
I pray I survive. If leaving will give me a peace of mind I'll grab it.