There goes the energy
Oh man, it's certainly been one heck of a week and I'm finally getting a chance to talk about it. Well basically I had a panic attack, not a pretty thing to see and I think only lsd_whorette69 and outbreed would understand what that's all about, but basically, I've worked ridiculous amount of hours which has made the rest of my life quite difficult and made me feel a slave to work. Anyways, good news is I finally changed my schedules around to finally get my weekends, not taking immediate effect, but hey, it's a start.
As for what else triggered the panic attack which isn't anything new with my condition, it got started by a $100 fine for picking up my mobile while driving, yeah, I know stupid but luckily all this work will make that pretty easy to pay off. A few other things stressed me out too, but thankfully fueding between various people have stopped making me be able to breathe a big sigh of relief for myself. I also missed Scott Brown, I apologise to my friends who went, especially since it was the #1 hardcore DJ in the world, not only that but many friends I hadn't seen in ages went, apologies I was overworked and overstressed and I wasn't going to enjoy it and was better off sleeping.
The week wasn't all completely stress and awfulness, I think I did come out with one amazing thing (well, two if you include that paycheque for the amount of work I had to do). I'm still confused at how it happened but I'm finally in a good group of friends with Alice, Adam and Josh. Just a whole bunch of people I can really have fun with and can put up with me and that last thing I said can be taken seriously considering the way my friendships have fallen in the past....
Oh and did I mention I have my digital camera back?
Taken from Saturday night. Josh, Adam and Alice, pics will be put up of that night sometime shortly and I'll post some of my favs in another livejournal post.
Now, sort of tired, just staying up to watch some A1GP, then get a lot of sleep. Rest of the week, should be picking up the Next Gen CD tommorow, looking at some new clothes this week and going to enjoy a night off finally! Hopefully squeeze in a bit of fun with knightmerz too and then Energise and I'm wishing dj_infinity all the best for this one! Before the year is out, livejournal updates, hopefully some computer upgrades, there's likely to be one extremely interesting adventure coming up in December, having fun with friends and to top it off if I could finally find a girl to be with, then that would be an awesome way to finish off the year but I can only hope. I'll save the NYE resolutions for another time.
EDIT: When I said that only those two people would understand, I meant it as they saw me in that state, not as in them having it unlike a few other people have commented about having experienced ones themselves, just thought I probably should clear that up.
As for what else triggered the panic attack which isn't anything new with my condition, it got started by a $100 fine for picking up my mobile while driving, yeah, I know stupid but luckily all this work will make that pretty easy to pay off. A few other things stressed me out too, but thankfully fueding between various people have stopped making me be able to breathe a big sigh of relief for myself. I also missed Scott Brown, I apologise to my friends who went, especially since it was the #1 hardcore DJ in the world, not only that but many friends I hadn't seen in ages went, apologies I was overworked and overstressed and I wasn't going to enjoy it and was better off sleeping.
The week wasn't all completely stress and awfulness, I think I did come out with one amazing thing (well, two if you include that paycheque for the amount of work I had to do). I'm still confused at how it happened but I'm finally in a good group of friends with Alice, Adam and Josh. Just a whole bunch of people I can really have fun with and can put up with me and that last thing I said can be taken seriously considering the way my friendships have fallen in the past....
Oh and did I mention I have my digital camera back?
Taken from Saturday night. Josh, Adam and Alice, pics will be put up of that night sometime shortly and I'll post some of my favs in another livejournal post.
Now, sort of tired, just staying up to watch some A1GP, then get a lot of sleep. Rest of the week, should be picking up the Next Gen CD tommorow, looking at some new clothes this week and going to enjoy a night off finally! Hopefully squeeze in a bit of fun with knightmerz too and then Energise and I'm wishing dj_infinity all the best for this one! Before the year is out, livejournal updates, hopefully some computer upgrades, there's likely to be one extremely interesting adventure coming up in December, having fun with friends and to top it off if I could finally find a girl to be with, then that would be an awesome way to finish off the year but I can only hope. I'll save the NYE resolutions for another time.
EDIT: When I said that only those two people would understand, I meant it as they saw me in that state, not as in them having it unlike a few other people have commented about having experienced ones themselves, just thought I probably should clear that up.