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Currently on break with my relationship from Milleh. Thought it was going to be a simple week or possibly two off and waiting for things to get easier in my life and eventually find a solution once things settle down but things keep getting more and more complex and I'm still questioning how on earth I can find a good solution between me and Milleh. Not going to go into more detail because things are changing everyday and when I finally get a clearer idea I'll be speaking to Milleh directly about it rather then blogging it down on here first.
What was a somewhat small Facebook tiff, has completely blown things insanely and while one part of me regrets getting pretty upset while drunk on Saturday night, it could have blown a lot worse later down the line later that month or on the weekend.
The reality is that me and Milleh had a reputation as this invincible couple that never would have problems but that's sadly in the past now. Honestly, we've both identified that with both of us going the way we are not going to be lasting long. There's got to be change to make this work.
As horrible as it sounds there is little change that can be done on my end, yes, the problems have started because I've been quite busy but you try asking anyone going to uni what their last week was like and it probably wouldn't have been too different to mine. People think I need to stop working 5 jobs, yet what people seem to forget is that it's a beautifully juggled and managed process, excluding ANZ, I generally work at other places once every two or three weeks. Which rarely goes over 25 hours a week, not bad from my 60 hour weeks at the start of the year. Also many people who claim I work too much are unemployed, so I generally do not think they have a leg to stand on.
I have regrettably made a lot of sacrifices in my relationship with Milleh and I think this week without Milleh has highlighted indefinitely. While I have definitely enjoyed spending lots of time with Milleh, there has been a lot I have missed out on in my time with Milleh and it's only been half a week and I've really enjoyed rediscovering a lot of things in life that I had almost forgotten about.
The number one thing everyone has told me is to basically make some sacrifices to make this relationship work and sadly it's going to be the opposite. I will be entering exams soon and having been nominated for not one but two awards for being not only the top accounting student but just about 30 minutes ago potentially the best business and finance student as well, I've got a goal which I feel that nobody has the right to take away from me and I've been somewhat skating on thin ice in the past month in terms of just passing, let alone getting good grades.
I have new fitness commitments and will be competing in a 14km fun run next month and Hairlucination has a gigantic expansion both with the stall at Supanova and a huge top secret project that will involve a fair bit of Perth to be announced in June, there's is another goal involved too. I guess people think I'm horrible for this but at the end of the day, this is who I am, I've received flack for being too busy, but hey, welcome to my life. Anyone who knows me or hangs out with me knows this who I am, I like doing stuff, I have better things to do then twittering my life away and simply begging on Facebook for something to do.
This is far from all there is too it, I'm just somewhat scratching the surface here and I don't think it's going to be as simple as working things out on Saturday night at Emma's party, I definitely have enjoyed and will have in mind all the awesome and wonderful times we've had together, it's a matter of whether this is going to work for me. I'm not making a half-hearted attempt to make it work, either we can make it work or it just won't.......
What was a somewhat small Facebook tiff, has completely blown things insanely and while one part of me regrets getting pretty upset while drunk on Saturday night, it could have blown a lot worse later down the line later that month or on the weekend.
The reality is that me and Milleh had a reputation as this invincible couple that never would have problems but that's sadly in the past now. Honestly, we've both identified that with both of us going the way we are not going to be lasting long. There's got to be change to make this work.
As horrible as it sounds there is little change that can be done on my end, yes, the problems have started because I've been quite busy but you try asking anyone going to uni what their last week was like and it probably wouldn't have been too different to mine. People think I need to stop working 5 jobs, yet what people seem to forget is that it's a beautifully juggled and managed process, excluding ANZ, I generally work at other places once every two or three weeks. Which rarely goes over 25 hours a week, not bad from my 60 hour weeks at the start of the year. Also many people who claim I work too much are unemployed, so I generally do not think they have a leg to stand on.
I have regrettably made a lot of sacrifices in my relationship with Milleh and I think this week without Milleh has highlighted indefinitely. While I have definitely enjoyed spending lots of time with Milleh, there has been a lot I have missed out on in my time with Milleh and it's only been half a week and I've really enjoyed rediscovering a lot of things in life that I had almost forgotten about.
The number one thing everyone has told me is to basically make some sacrifices to make this relationship work and sadly it's going to be the opposite. I will be entering exams soon and having been nominated for not one but two awards for being not only the top accounting student but just about 30 minutes ago potentially the best business and finance student as well, I've got a goal which I feel that nobody has the right to take away from me and I've been somewhat skating on thin ice in the past month in terms of just passing, let alone getting good grades.
I have new fitness commitments and will be competing in a 14km fun run next month and Hairlucination has a gigantic expansion both with the stall at Supanova and a huge top secret project that will involve a fair bit of Perth to be announced in June, there's is another goal involved too. I guess people think I'm horrible for this but at the end of the day, this is who I am, I've received flack for being too busy, but hey, welcome to my life. Anyone who knows me or hangs out with me knows this who I am, I like doing stuff, I have better things to do then twittering my life away and simply begging on Facebook for something to do.
This is far from all there is too it, I'm just somewhat scratching the surface here and I don't think it's going to be as simple as working things out on Saturday night at Emma's party, I definitely have enjoyed and will have in mind all the awesome and wonderful times we've had together, it's a matter of whether this is going to work for me. I'm not making a half-hearted attempt to make it work, either we can make it work or it just won't.......