Tired of it all
It's a bit odd, I was all excited about going back to uni but it hasn't taken very long for me to really start hating life as it is at the moment. There's been two problems, the first being that I'm studying a bachelor of commerce which I'm not that keen on, I'm just hanging in there so I can get onto the accounting parts and second of all there's a lot of essay writing, I'm finding it ok but there's a lot more pressure and remember it's not that I can't accept it but having come from a very mathematical, problem solving route and requiring to thread more carefully, means I'm really out of my league here and am somewhat drowning in it all.
Very upset and depressed at the moment, Hairlucination has hit a major stalling point, no thanks to one 'reliable' supplier that's done amazing service to so many except for me. I'm very down about life, it just seems to be a never ending barage of work and studying and I'm seeing too few rewards out of it. There's a tremendous amount of pressure on me at the moment and it feels like I'm constantly sprinting with very little break in sight.
I'm also heavily craving new things in my life. I've had a few recent ideas in a previous post about what I want to achieve in the next few years but physical fitness is one that is really getting me down. It's a major problem with time but I really want to learn parkour, some form of martial arts, running and something that's really good for the upper body, I really wish I had the time to fit it all in.
Life is getting worse, I'm losing motivation and am nowhere near seeing the big picture and the finale. Things have been down this year but it's seeming like I'm fighting an ever constant battle with myself and drowning myself in my own tragedy somewhat.
Things are slowly ending but I'm not getting happier at all..............
Very upset and depressed at the moment, Hairlucination has hit a major stalling point, no thanks to one 'reliable' supplier that's done amazing service to so many except for me. I'm very down about life, it just seems to be a never ending barage of work and studying and I'm seeing too few rewards out of it. There's a tremendous amount of pressure on me at the moment and it feels like I'm constantly sprinting with very little break in sight.
I'm also heavily craving new things in my life. I've had a few recent ideas in a previous post about what I want to achieve in the next few years but physical fitness is one that is really getting me down. It's a major problem with time but I really want to learn parkour, some form of martial arts, running and something that's really good for the upper body, I really wish I had the time to fit it all in.
Life is getting worse, I'm losing motivation and am nowhere near seeing the big picture and the finale. Things have been down this year but it's seeming like I'm fighting an ever constant battle with myself and drowning myself in my own tragedy somewhat.
Things are slowly ending but I'm not getting happier at all..............