I always forget about the milk.

[cybaangel]

"All the time, all the time I hear people say, "how can they be like that, how can they like those things", but it's so easy, so easy to get things mixed up. You're feeling this, and then this other comes along, another feeling, then you're feeling both at the same time, and they're all twisting around each other like wither around a rose. You look at that 12 year old girl and you think, "she's pretty", and a part of your brain thinks that pretty means sexy, and then it's all jumbled up. Or you love someone, and they kick you in the face, and then the more they kick you, the more you love them, until you love being kicked so much that if they ever stop kicking you, then heaven help them.

And it gets more and more twisted up, like a ball of rolled up sickness, until you turn your own stomach. But you know what? That's ok. Really, it's ok for you to think that stuff. Think about lifting her dress up, think about getting kicked. Things just got mixed up, but you're still ok. You can find your way out. Thinking anything is ok.

Unless you step across that bridge between thought and action, though, then you're not in control, you're just watching your own sickness, that's all you're doing, and then you're doing it again, you're risking your whole fucking world just so you can do it again. That's when you aren't being a person anymore.

Having twisted thoughts, and being a twisted thing, there is a difference.

Hey. Hey, let's be friends. I'm happy to meet you."