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so you see it is like this..sometimes in our life things happen then one day we wake up and suddenly ralize that there is NOTHING that is going to be able to be done about the situation.
I am having a child, an yes, i kind of dont know who the babies father is. i am confused between two. but that is okay. i love my child anyway. it does not matter who the father is. i love her. she is my baby and the love of my life. i have not came to this realization and me saying this now lets me understand. i need to understand. but i need to deal with the choices i have made and deal with the child that is growing inside of me. i love her. i will love her for a long time. forever actually. and i am okay with that. in fact i am perfectly happy with the idea of taking this child's life into my hands and making her to be the most wonderful woman she can be. despite all of the problems she will go through i will for ever be in her life. holding her hand and making sure that she has me. so maybe she wont have a father. maybe she will. if she does or is she doesn't she will at least know that she will have a mother that loves her more than anything in this world. and one day she will come to me and ask about her father, and i will be as honest with her as i think i need to be at the time and tell her. she will know. she will learn. she will fail, and hurt, and hate, and cry. she will have problems and hate me more each day. and that will be wonderful. she will make me cry. i will see her develop and start school, then graduate, then go to college, the love and carry on what i gave her. and that makes me the happiest.
i will be there for her.
she will always have me
no matter what.
she is my love
my child
my Violet.
I am having a child, an yes, i kind of dont know who the babies father is. i am confused between two. but that is okay. i love my child anyway. it does not matter who the father is. i love her. she is my baby and the love of my life. i have not came to this realization and me saying this now lets me understand. i need to understand. but i need to deal with the choices i have made and deal with the child that is growing inside of me. i love her. i will love her for a long time. forever actually. and i am okay with that. in fact i am perfectly happy with the idea of taking this child's life into my hands and making her to be the most wonderful woman she can be. despite all of the problems she will go through i will for ever be in her life. holding her hand and making sure that she has me. so maybe she wont have a father. maybe she will. if she does or is she doesn't she will at least know that she will have a mother that loves her more than anything in this world. and one day she will come to me and ask about her father, and i will be as honest with her as i think i need to be at the time and tell her. she will know. she will learn. she will fail, and hurt, and hate, and cry. she will have problems and hate me more each day. and that will be wonderful. she will make me cry. i will see her develop and start school, then graduate, then go to college, the love and carry on what i gave her. and that makes me the happiest.
i will be there for her.
she will always have me
no matter what.
she is my love
my child
my Violet.