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i didn't intend on updating today. i don't have much to say, at all. so why update? but i was sitting here, talking to alleface, and eating my shamrock cookie (it tastes kind of like coconuts) and thinking.
so my thoughts led me to this realization. i am my own worst enemy. i criticize myself horribly, i never think i am good enough at the things i do, i double back on my original ideas. like okay, take photography. i know i'm not sucky at it at all, but i feel like what i do won't compare to anyone elses and that i'll look stupid. that whole thought it keeping me from calling the allen reider studio and finding out about a job. plus the fact that i don't want to do wedding photography, i want to shoot whatever i feel is beautiful.
speaking of beautiful, we studied chinese art after 1280 today. mostly literati calligraphy paintings. maybe i should be an art historian. i really enjoy that type of stuff, or it's just the professor. prof. tuerk is amazing. she taught us all about the subway system, cause face it, i know the city by foot, but taking trains and such, other then to get to the village, i am completely stupid. So, we got a nice googlized tour of the city and the subway, and a list of like 10 amazing places to eat. Alle and I also decided that she practices tantric sex. the end.
so my thoughts led me to this realization. i am my own worst enemy. i criticize myself horribly, i never think i am good enough at the things i do, i double back on my original ideas. like okay, take photography. i know i'm not sucky at it at all, but i feel like what i do won't compare to anyone elses and that i'll look stupid. that whole thought it keeping me from calling the allen reider studio and finding out about a job. plus the fact that i don't want to do wedding photography, i want to shoot whatever i feel is beautiful.
speaking of beautiful, we studied chinese art after 1280 today. mostly literati calligraphy paintings. maybe i should be an art historian. i really enjoy that type of stuff, or it's just the professor. prof. tuerk is amazing. she taught us all about the subway system, cause face it, i know the city by foot, but taking trains and such, other then to get to the village, i am completely stupid. So, we got a nice googlized tour of the city and the subway, and a list of like 10 amazing places to eat. Alle and I also decided that she practices tantric sex. the end.