I gotta get out!!
God I dont know what to do. I make shit at work, but I gotta move out. I cant take it living here with my brother and father any more. My brothers a fuckin asshole. He treats me like shit. He disrespects me and my dad and thinks he can do whatever he wants. Everything I say to him turns into an arguement. I'm sick of cleaning up after my brother and constantly having my dad on my ass about something else every day. I cant do shit because I dont pay bills. Why would I pay to live here if I dont want to be here? So because of that hes bein a dick about shit. I cant have ppl over if we're drinking. Weather the other ppl are of age or not. He'd rather me be out drinkin somewhere else then in the saftey of my own home. he doesnt care if its just me, but he doesnt want my friends here if thy're drinking, cuz he said that this isnt a party house. Like I even have that many friends as it is. Then theres the fact that I get along better with guys then I do girls so I have alot more guy friends then girl friends cuz most girls suck and its hard to find any I actually get along with. So he said if I have to guy friends over (ex: squirrel n brett)it looks bad when I have 2 guys walkin out of my room if any of my grandparents come over. Just stupid shit like that. I spazed. Im like "what now u think Im fuckin all my friends?! what the fuck do u think I am?!" I just cant take it any more. I literally hate this house its self as it is. My rooms retardedly small and I just hate ever feature about it. Ive been here for 16 fuckin years and Ive just had enough, but I dont think I make enough to move out. Not to mention gas in my car is killin me (when I do get to drive it.) I dunno what to do. Im saving everything I can right now untill I can figure something out. I have tons of people who said they'd glady be roomies with me but I just have to pick the rite people. I dont need ppl who arent going to clean after themselves like my brother and I dont need ppl who are going to make me worried about having nice things get ruined cuz they wanna be stupid. I also wanna find ppl that have the same tastes as me n dont care how I decorate the house, and will let me. I dont want ppl I'll end up fighting like crazy with down the line about stupid shit cuz if I wanted all that, I'd stay here. I dont know. I have to figure something out. Untill then I guess I just have to keep saving what I can n looking for a job that will pay more and still be flexible with my school schedual. Oh and I guess im gettin my car fixed. I have to ship the bad part to virginia so they can rebuild the part and send it back to me. Its gonna cost about $10 to send the part and they want $170 to fix it n send it back. This thing literally fits in the palm of my hand n weigs 5lbs. This little thing is whats causin all the trouble. So once thats taken care of I still have to worrie about gettin new rims n tires cuz mine r shot. Then theres still the problem of tryin to figure out if they fixed the little problem of it staling out on me like it has. But I wont find that out untill it does it again. I was gonna get rims n tires, all 4 for $75 from this guy at work but hes been flakin on bringin them to work so I can get them so I guess thats not happenin. It sux cuz I know Im not gonna get a good deal like that any where else. Espically for crome 16's. But I guess it doesnt matter cuz those wouldnt be good for the winter anyways. I dunno.