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Why are you accosting me for the way I feel? I'm supposed to feel guilty for telling one person and not you? I'm supposed to feel guilty because I don't want to hurt you? I'm supposed to feel guilty because my feelings don't make any goddamn sense? Yeah, sometimes I'm upset for no reason. It's called depression. I have it. I was diagnosed several months ago. I don't know where you were then, or where you have been for the past five months, but I thought you knew that. I figured maybe I wouldn't have to explain the concept of feeling for no reason over and over, and that maybe, just once, you wouldn't make me feel guilty for being depressed.
I'm not supposed to feel guilty for this, why are you making me? Why are you making me out to be the bad guy every time? Because I was upset, wouldn't tell you, then you got upset, it's my fault? It's my fault that you're being pissy because I don't work like a normal person? It's my fault that your day is ruined because you don't believe me when I say it's nothing?
I don't know, maybe nothing is wrong, maybe something is. Considering my best friend just died, and I don't have anyone to take me to a doctor, and my depression has gotten out of control, I surely wouldn't expect me to be acting sadder than normal. I have to speak at a funeral today; everything is just fine! I'll just pretend that I'm not an emotional wreck and everything makes sense and all things in my life are just turning up roses!
Don't you ever listen to me? You know, you asked if it was your fault before, and it wasn't, but now my day is fucked, and yes, it is your fault. I'm going to feel guilty all day for being upset, like I have no right to feel this way. And I guess, according to you, I don't have any right to feel this way.
I'm not supposed to feel guilty for this, why are you making me? Why are you making me out to be the bad guy every time? Because I was upset, wouldn't tell you, then you got upset, it's my fault? It's my fault that you're being pissy because I don't work like a normal person? It's my fault that your day is ruined because you don't believe me when I say it's nothing?
I don't know, maybe nothing is wrong, maybe something is. Considering my best friend just died, and I don't have anyone to take me to a doctor, and my depression has gotten out of control, I surely wouldn't expect me to be acting sadder than normal. I have to speak at a funeral today; everything is just fine! I'll just pretend that I'm not an emotional wreck and everything makes sense and all things in my life are just turning up roses!
Don't you ever listen to me? You know, you asked if it was your fault before, and it wasn't, but now my day is fucked, and yes, it is your fault. I'm going to feel guilty all day for being upset, like I have no right to feel this way. And I guess, according to you, I don't have any right to feel this way.