WHOA so confused
03 mars 2006 @ 05:03
Its been a long time since i updated, but i had to. There is so much on my mind, that i do not know where to start. I had a reason to wake up every morning, do something, be someone, but its gone. Was it destiny? Perhaps it was. I really would like to move, or change something. I am not happy with myself, i've been not who i really am. I am far behind in school, maybe too far behind. Hopefully I can catch up, hopefully. I've fallen asleep with tears in my eyes for the past 3 weeks. Mostly because i'm feeling like such a failure. I've lost touch with God and I'm so lost right now. I cannot sleep anymore, i do not know why. I miss being innocent and not knowing what love is. Love, is it when you value another's life more than yours? If that's true I'm in love with more people than i can imagine. I wish i could just show everyone how much i care about them, but then i think again is this just a cry out for attention? Is it? There is a girl that changed my life, she will never know the ways she touched my life....
The last part i find really weird because he told me that i meant something to him and 2nd of all why am i thinking about this Andrew kid...
Its been a long time since i updated, but i had to. There is so much on my mind, that i do not know where to start. I had a reason to wake up every morning, do something, be someone, but its gone. Was it destiny? Perhaps it was. I really would like to move, or change something. I am not happy with myself, i've been not who i really am. I am far behind in school, maybe too far behind. Hopefully I can catch up, hopefully. I've fallen asleep with tears in my eyes for the past 3 weeks. Mostly because i'm feeling like such a failure. I've lost touch with God and I'm so lost right now. I cannot sleep anymore, i do not know why. I miss being innocent and not knowing what love is. Love, is it when you value another's life more than yours? If that's true I'm in love with more people than i can imagine. I wish i could just show everyone how much i care about them, but then i think again is this just a cry out for attention? Is it? There is a girl that changed my life, she will never know the ways she touched my life....
The last part i find really weird because he told me that i meant something to him and 2nd of all why am i thinking about this Andrew kid...