Typhonian
god damn shit....
I've been engaged in a lot of stuff that I need to be doing. Some of it for my protracted investment of the future. Its a little overwhelming. There's so much going on and I suppose I have a lot to learn. I know I do. I'm sort of enjoying the process I guess.
I've been drinking a lot of coffee(2-3 small cups a day, thats a lot for me I guess) and also working out a lot. I don't know what it is. I go through these crazed gym things every now and again.
I have to say, I'm kind of in a bad spot. I definitely don't feel like I wield enough power sometimes and have enough control over where my life is going. Although there is no lack of happiness in my life, in fact there is a remarkable amount as of late. Everything is "okay" and where it should be though. There really are things that could be more to my advantage. I'm just a little impatient. Having enemies is really bad, especially when they are in your way...
So the whole story with the police-sniper rifle and all the bloodhunger that ensued after a few days ago had to do with an individual who's duties include evaluating instructors at a company I work for. I used to be a classical musician and was regularly in front of juries and individuals criticizing what I held most dear all the time. And I respected it, because they were smart and would say constructive, although occasionally stinging comments. I understood their perspective and wasn't so sensitive about it...
I can only say ...that this....rat bastard, asshole... resembled none of that. I've been evaluated by 4 people before him with no problem, but this was the stupidest bunch of shit I have ever had to listen to in my life, extremely well disguised in sheeps clothing. But I saw right through it. Additionally I feel like this guy has had issues with me since I started there that I can attribute to maybe one thing or another... either way he is no one to me and has effectively made me number my days at this company by personal choice.
I don't know what to attribute it to, because there is nothing characteristic about this person that I specifically can attribute my hatred towards, meaning he doesn't resemble anything that I am known to dislike in a person. But I will say that I don't remember hating someone so intensely in my life. The dehumanization process occured very rapidly and I'm eager to burn this bridge as soon as possible and get myself the fuck away from this motherfucker.
Not being able to write music for a living really pisses me off sometimes. It's totally what I do best and what I feel most committed toward. Whatever. Rules of the game I guess.
Maybe one day i'll just buy 1.6 million dollars in barabonds, hire someone to steal them, collect 100% from the insurance and buy back the bonds from the theifs at 60 cents on the dollar. Then I can do whatever I want all day.
Back to work.
I've been engaged in a lot of stuff that I need to be doing. Some of it for my protracted investment of the future. Its a little overwhelming. There's so much going on and I suppose I have a lot to learn. I know I do. I'm sort of enjoying the process I guess.
I've been drinking a lot of coffee(2-3 small cups a day, thats a lot for me I guess) and also working out a lot. I don't know what it is. I go through these crazed gym things every now and again.
I have to say, I'm kind of in a bad spot. I definitely don't feel like I wield enough power sometimes and have enough control over where my life is going. Although there is no lack of happiness in my life, in fact there is a remarkable amount as of late. Everything is "okay" and where it should be though. There really are things that could be more to my advantage. I'm just a little impatient. Having enemies is really bad, especially when they are in your way...
So the whole story with the police-sniper rifle and all the bloodhunger that ensued after a few days ago had to do with an individual who's duties include evaluating instructors at a company I work for. I used to be a classical musician and was regularly in front of juries and individuals criticizing what I held most dear all the time. And I respected it, because they were smart and would say constructive, although occasionally stinging comments. I understood their perspective and wasn't so sensitive about it...
I can only say ...that this....rat bastard, asshole... resembled none of that. I've been evaluated by 4 people before him with no problem, but this was the stupidest bunch of shit I have ever had to listen to in my life, extremely well disguised in sheeps clothing. But I saw right through it. Additionally I feel like this guy has had issues with me since I started there that I can attribute to maybe one thing or another... either way he is no one to me and has effectively made me number my days at this company by personal choice.
I don't know what to attribute it to, because there is nothing characteristic about this person that I specifically can attribute my hatred towards, meaning he doesn't resemble anything that I am known to dislike in a person. But I will say that I don't remember hating someone so intensely in my life. The dehumanization process occured very rapidly and I'm eager to burn this bridge as soon as possible and get myself the fuck away from this motherfucker.
Not being able to write music for a living really pisses me off sometimes. It's totally what I do best and what I feel most committed toward. Whatever. Rules of the game I guess.
Maybe one day i'll just buy 1.6 million dollars in barabonds, hire someone to steal them, collect 100% from the insurance and buy back the bonds from the theifs at 60 cents on the dollar. Then I can do whatever I want all day.
Back to work.