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It's strange how all of my depressing entries get comments yet the ones where I say I had fun don't. anywho....onto business.
So I'm in a strange place right now. Everything is stale, nothing is really going on and nothing is too exciting. I've basically been thinking a lot lately. About me as an individual, and I have come to realize that I am alone. Although this isn't the first realization of that, this is the true acknowledgment of it. I am facing this one and it sucks. It's so hard....getting through high school and finding out that it is all made up of lovers and liars. The lovers would be considered as the people who have their little girlfriends/boyfriends and are so incredibly into them that they think that they will never break up. Which in reality, high school isn't the rest of your life, as much as you want it to be. Then there are the liars, those are the people who basically lie to themselves to make them feel better. They think of themselves in a much higher place than they are. They augment this statuesque vision of them-self by going out on the weekends, getting drunk and doing drugs. They are denying the inevitable, which is, the fact that after high school, they will amount to absolutely nothing. They will see high school as their peak in life. Which it isn'. There is so much more to life than the narrow-minded ways of high school. Yet the only way they are happy is if they force themselves to believe that high school is it. Then, once it is over they say "shit, now what?" All the while, I will be sitting there thanking myself and those "cool kids" for not letting me be a part of that. Only because if I was let in, I would be in th same place as they are. But, thanks to them and their cliques, my eyes were opened to the fact that I am better off without being a part of them......Thank You popular kids.
So I'm in a strange place right now. Everything is stale, nothing is really going on and nothing is too exciting. I've basically been thinking a lot lately. About me as an individual, and I have come to realize that I am alone. Although this isn't the first realization of that, this is the true acknowledgment of it. I am facing this one and it sucks. It's so hard....getting through high school and finding out that it is all made up of lovers and liars. The lovers would be considered as the people who have their little girlfriends/boyfriends and are so incredibly into them that they think that they will never break up. Which in reality, high school isn't the rest of your life, as much as you want it to be. Then there are the liars, those are the people who basically lie to themselves to make them feel better. They think of themselves in a much higher place than they are. They augment this statuesque vision of them-self by going out on the weekends, getting drunk and doing drugs. They are denying the inevitable, which is, the fact that after high school, they will amount to absolutely nothing. They will see high school as their peak in life. Which it isn'. There is so much more to life than the narrow-minded ways of high school. Yet the only way they are happy is if they force themselves to believe that high school is it. Then, once it is over they say "shit, now what?" All the while, I will be sitting there thanking myself and those "cool kids" for not letting me be a part of that. Only because if I was let in, I would be in th same place as they are. But, thanks to them and their cliques, my eyes were opened to the fact that I am better off without being a part of them......Thank You popular kids.