GOD DIDNT WANNA BE SUCH AN ASS HOLE!!!!
i like modest mouse. their cd reminds me of the beetles or david bowie. heh its super.
i hate august. i never remember how much i hate august until it actually is august. and by then it's too late to turn time backwards. i hate august b/c of those annoying crickets that make that EE EE EE EEE sound every night all night. it reminds me of when i get back from martha's vineyard and theres only 2 weeks left till school. i hate that feeling. that feeling of getting back to ur house after being away for 2 weeks and everything feels so foreign. i hate not knowing where i m. and feeling like an alien in my own home. and its really sticky and theres no ocean to cool off in. i miss the ocean a lot. i hate august. it reminds me of every mistake ive ever made. and god knows thats a long fucking list.
i also feel really lonely. my mother and i didnt fight today, for once. b/c i didnt open my mouth once while i was at my grandparents unless someone spoke to me. and i sat with a smile on my face the whole time. and then she hugged me and told me she loved me before we got in the car. *gag* dont even try it.
i feel like cursing. my stomach feels like shit. what else is new? im gonna try something new this time...
i hate august. i never remember how much i hate august until it actually is august. and by then it's too late to turn time backwards. i hate august b/c of those annoying crickets that make that EE EE EE EEE sound every night all night. it reminds me of when i get back from martha's vineyard and theres only 2 weeks left till school. i hate that feeling. that feeling of getting back to ur house after being away for 2 weeks and everything feels so foreign. i hate not knowing where i m. and feeling like an alien in my own home. and its really sticky and theres no ocean to cool off in. i miss the ocean a lot. i hate august. it reminds me of every mistake ive ever made. and god knows thats a long fucking list.
i also feel really lonely. my mother and i didnt fight today, for once. b/c i didnt open my mouth once while i was at my grandparents unless someone spoke to me. and i sat with a smile on my face the whole time. and then she hugged me and told me she loved me before we got in the car. *gag* dont even try it.
i feel like cursing. my stomach feels like shit. what else is new? im gonna try something new this time...