Apr 29, 2008 03:26
Ok, so I have this new job at Convergy's.
I'm a tech support agent for AT&T's u-verse. It's basically like a 3 in 1 provider. Cable, internet, and phone services. With the exception they all run through Fiber optic cables. Anyways I make 10.80 an hour, so it's pretty decent and time flies while you're there because you're on the phone for so long each call.
I'm going to get my shit together once and for all this time. Get a good running car and move out again. Paying off all my bills in the process.
I pretty much hate myself at this point in my life. Nothing's really ever gone my way or helped me out whatsoever. My birthday's also coming up soon. Which depresses me even more.
On a happier note, I bought a new guitar. It's an Ibanez. It's beautiful.
Think about being in physical pain all the time. I mean all the time too, from the second you wake up until the second you go to sleep. Constant constant pain. I don't know how much longer I can bare it. It makes it hard to focus at work, hard to focus in general on anything. And advil, aleve, aspirin don't do anything to make it subside even a little. I'm at the end of my rope. I don't know how much longer I can take it. It's breaking my spirit. My hope. Me. I'm falling apart at the seams.
If you don't love yourself, how can you love others?
I'm broken beyond repair this time, and there's no one to pick up the pieces.
These lyrics seemed appropriate, HA
~~Oh, my god there must be something, something to take the pain away. And so there's nothing you can give me, it's probably better off this way. I live my life, in the shadows of the things I'm trying to hide.~~