Scared
I cried in fear this afternoon . . still feel like vomiting
It is the scariest thing in the world to live for 26 years knowing that you never want kids. Then over the course of a year come to realize that in 3-5 years Chris and I might have a baby. When I said that out loud while talking with chris is when i just started to ball out of fear. Ok writing that makes me wanna Puke as well. Chris thought he would always want Kids but figured if he didn't have any that would be ok. . . so his world is not falling apart like mine.
Things can change, I could just be crazy right now. Things will not change to have a kid any time sooner, damnit I don't even like kids! But as of today it was said out loud for both of us to hear.
I had to expel this but am incapable of directing it in a specific direction.
By no means 100%
It is the scariest thing in the world to live for 26 years knowing that you never want kids. Then over the course of a year come to realize that in 3-5 years Chris and I might have a baby. When I said that out loud while talking with chris is when i just started to ball out of fear. Ok writing that makes me wanna Puke as well. Chris thought he would always want Kids but figured if he didn't have any that would be ok. . . so his world is not falling apart like mine.
Things can change, I could just be crazy right now. Things will not change to have a kid any time sooner, damnit I don't even like kids! But as of today it was said out loud for both of us to hear.
I had to expel this but am incapable of directing it in a specific direction.
By no means 100%