THis weekend was full of mixed emotions.
Friday we ate dinner with my parents and my little brother then went back to Renee's to pick up her mom and go look at rings at the mall. The diamond still hasn't come into the jewler so we just looked at general stuff and walked around. The auto-show was fun for the most part. There were a few things that tried to make it suck, but well, those aren't important. I fell in love with the new F-150's even more... i mean i love my 200 F-150 and plan on keeping it for a long time, but those new ones (particularly the Lariat that I tried on for size) are simply divine. They also had the Cadillac XLR i love... it's even better in person. Renee looks awesome in those little convertibles. The Mercedes SLK was designed just for her it seems like. She also seemed to like the Subaru Impreza which was really cute on her, and good because it's AWD. The major issue that brought me down was seeing Eric and him totally giving me the cold shoulder. For being my 'best friend' he certainly isn't showing any compassion for the fact that i have no free time and what little i do have i want to spend with my future wife. He came home from Texas and got a job and now has the money and the time to live the partying, go out and drink and club type of life that I just don't want. I'm not in that stage, to be honest, i want to move on to the next stage more than anything. I'm ready to settle down. I was never the biggest partier to begin with. I put my time in, had my fun, and still managed to keep my self-respect and stay out of trouble. But even that's all behind me now, i don't want to go out to the bars anymore, i don't want to cruise with two single guys as they check out girls, i want to curl up with my girlfriend or do couple things... i'm ready to start my life... and by that i get a job, have a family (wife is all i want for a good number of years, kids come much later). That's what i want. Oh well, if i throw him a bone once in a while that's all i can offer, he'll get used to it and start to understand sooner or later and we'll be ok. So that's the major issue. That just put me in a bad mood which will probably continue off and on unitl Saturday which sucks because that sets the table for stupid crap to bother me. I'm trying really hard not to let the downward spiral affect me too much, but i've already failed at that afew times. The rest of Friday was nice though, i stopped to get a Shamrock shake for Renee and i on the way home from the aut show which was good then we curled up and enjoyed a niec long nap. Saturday was ok, i worked for a fw hours and did a ton of school work, then left to play in the father-daughter basketball thing with my little cousin which was a total waste of my day in terms of productivity, but it made her happy so that's all that really matters. She was really excited that i was there, which was nice, I was glad i could be there for her. We went to dinner with my parents then to the mall. I got the new Kenny Chesney cd which is good so far and then we played with our future puppy... a painfully cute Shiba Inu. I SO wanted to take it home right there... he liked me too, hehe. Later we watched most of Bruce ALmighty until I fell asleep (and she did too) for a few hours. Sunday pretty much sucked. I was at work doing homework non-stop for 11 hours, except for when i went to school to work on a project. Renee was/is really stressed about her exam and project which is understandable, i just wish i could help. Nothing else worth mentioning really happened, it was just a long, stressful, aggravating day of work. SO that's the weekend.
Today started out sucking. I was in a really bad mood and let it get to me and then I upset Renee which feel SO bad about. However wehn she met me for lunch everything was great and I think we were both in much better moods (I'm really sorry again Angel, i Love you :-*. So now, here i am at work, and venting all this. The rest of the week is going to be extremely long and stressful with school, but it will be ok.
Whew, I'm spent. Thanks for bearing with me through all of that.