changes
I need to be typing a paper about rumors and memory, but I have no idea what to type. It's due in 12 hours...I rock at this game.
I've been thinking a lot lately about myself. I think as a whole I feel very good about the way my life is going. I also feel, however, that I have changed quite a bit in the past two months. It's really just a continuation of a process that started a long time ago, but I'm realizing it quite a bit right now.
We are all products of the world in which we live. No matter how hard we may try to stay the same, the culture in which we live greatly influences our actions and even our feelings. Okay, I feel like I'm writing a communication text book, but it's true. When I'm at Cedar Point I act a certain way. When I'm at home with my friends I act another. Now I have discovered changes in my personality since being at school. The places in which I have lived up to this point in my life have all influenced me greatly, but probably none as much as where I am at right now.
I am having more fun here than I have ever had in my life. That's not to belittle anyone at Cedar Point or in Sharpsville, it's just the environment here is so different, and there are many things that are accessable here that are not so in other places. I'm not talking about tangible things, I'm talking socially and environmentally. Even after only two months I have met people who I feel are very siugnificant in my life. I don't know the right way to put it in words, but I just feel comfortable. I don't know how comfortable I feel in other places.
That being said, thinking about returning to those other places makes me a little apprehensive. Like I said, I have changed a lot. Not intentionally, but one's culture plays a huge role in their personality. To be honest, I don't think I'm as nice of a person as I was three months ago, and I like it. It's not that living in Pittsburgh has turned me into some huge jerk, but I've adopted a different view of my world and the people in it. I like who I am right now, and I really don't care if other people do or not. Don't get me wrong, I still value my friends' opinions, it's the other people I don't care about so much. I don't have to care if people like me or not. I'm going to be myself and if people don't like it they can deal. It's not that I've stopped being nice to people, it's just that I don't care what they think any more if they don't care about what I think.
- UPDATE -
Next time I think staying up all night to finish a paper is a good idea, hurt me...physically...
I've been thinking a lot lately about myself. I think as a whole I feel very good about the way my life is going. I also feel, however, that I have changed quite a bit in the past two months. It's really just a continuation of a process that started a long time ago, but I'm realizing it quite a bit right now.
We are all products of the world in which we live. No matter how hard we may try to stay the same, the culture in which we live greatly influences our actions and even our feelings. Okay, I feel like I'm writing a communication text book, but it's true. When I'm at Cedar Point I act a certain way. When I'm at home with my friends I act another. Now I have discovered changes in my personality since being at school. The places in which I have lived up to this point in my life have all influenced me greatly, but probably none as much as where I am at right now.
I am having more fun here than I have ever had in my life. That's not to belittle anyone at Cedar Point or in Sharpsville, it's just the environment here is so different, and there are many things that are accessable here that are not so in other places. I'm not talking about tangible things, I'm talking socially and environmentally. Even after only two months I have met people who I feel are very siugnificant in my life. I don't know the right way to put it in words, but I just feel comfortable. I don't know how comfortable I feel in other places.
That being said, thinking about returning to those other places makes me a little apprehensive. Like I said, I have changed a lot. Not intentionally, but one's culture plays a huge role in their personality. To be honest, I don't think I'm as nice of a person as I was three months ago, and I like it. It's not that living in Pittsburgh has turned me into some huge jerk, but I've adopted a different view of my world and the people in it. I like who I am right now, and I really don't care if other people do or not. Don't get me wrong, I still value my friends' opinions, it's the other people I don't care about so much. I don't have to care if people like me or not. I'm going to be myself and if people don't like it they can deal. It's not that I've stopped being nice to people, it's just that I don't care what they think any more if they don't care about what I think.
- UPDATE -
Next time I think staying up all night to finish a paper is a good idea, hurt me...physically...