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The wedding is over. Thank goodness. If there's ever an event that makes me feel like a lonely pathetic piece of shit it's a wedding. Especially a wedding of a young couple - where everyone around me is my age ... and oh yea, they all have dates with them. And I sit at the table... alone. And my grandmother has to tell me over and over and over again "You need a boyfriend." Thanks grandma. I wasn't aware that I'm the only one here without a date. And no, Grandma, I don't NEED a boyfriend. But somehow, that's what's wrong with me, that's what makes me incomplete - my not having a boy on my arm. Well fuck that. That just further makes me NOT want to date anyone.
Big events (i.e. weddings) make me think of Tom. Hell, everything makes me think of Tom. Tom never had the chance to fall in love and marry the woman of his dreams. Damn it, I need to buy waterproof mascara. Why can't I get over Tom? Why can't I smile at his memory? Why do I cry still all the time?
Big events (i.e. weddings) make me think of Tom. Hell, everything makes me think of Tom. Tom never had the chance to fall in love and marry the woman of his dreams. Damn it, I need to buy waterproof mascara. Why can't I get over Tom? Why can't I smile at his memory? Why do I cry still all the time?