to trust in the darkness of ignorance

[cwalk05]

It's so hard to trust God with things so rare. I have such a tendency to take everything into my own hands and work it out according to MY will and not HIS. I want this to be different. I want HIS will to be done. I want everything to be the exact opposite of anything I've ever known. I desperately want this to work out, but I keep reminding myself that whatever HE deems best, is best and I will be blessed in that. I know what I want and I continually find myself attempting to convince God that that's His own plan. Who am I to tell God what's in His plan? It's so difficult to just sit here, seemingly idle, and wait on His timing. Right now, it appears that nothing will ever happen, and I cannot cease to think about the entire situation. You are so in control, God. I know that. I will trust You in everything....or try at least.

Here are the lyrics to a song and my friend T-ran and I wrote last night...It's called "The Story-Part 1"

Who am I? Who am I, Lord?

I just want to know if you're really listening
I just want to know if you really care
I just want to know if you're still with me
Because I can't live without you beside me.

(ok that's the chorus..I can't remember the verses right now. lol)

♥ cw