Apr 23, 2004 21:59
What do you do when you find yourself incapable of following your own ethical decisions and philosophical decisions? I found myself worrying about my future today but my philosophy on the matter is merely that nothing in the world matters but happiness, something that money still has yet to truly replicate. How can I justify this worrying about my future when the only problem is that I see a lack of possible progress. Why should I really care? Why shouldn't I just work at Kinko's for the rest of my life? I've seen it work for a number of people. Yet it's not something that I want to do, it's just a stupid perfectionist desire to achieve more no matter where I am in life.
I feel like I'm having a mid-life crisis but I have no good reason for it. Buh, what am I talking about, we're supposed to be completely messed up and clueless at this age, my psych book said so.
If your ethical decisions aren't firm enough to hold up against your subconscious, are they the right decision for you? It's like when you flip a coin and you don't like the outcome; should you take what the coin says or realize that maybe the other one was the correct decision for you?