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My god, I've been kinda depressed for the last couple of days and I've finally figured out why: I couldn't think of a good thesis for my paper.
Okay, when I put it that way it sounds silly, maybe it is anyways, but let me put it another way: my failure to find a thesis for my paper seemed to validate that in fact, no matter how hard I tried (and god how I tried, ask Jenna how many emails I sent her complaining about my stupid essay) I was inherently incapable of producing anything of any value. Add to this that my assumption for the last few months has been that ADHD was the reason for all my ills (which of course it isn't) and this validation comes to even more value, because it proves that ADHD _wasn't_ the problem afterall, I was really just incredibly stupid.
But I've found one, I've found one of those theses that make you go "Oooh my god! That is soo good!" Yeah, I'm stoked.
On a boring note I've come to the conclusion that the neighbors are spying on me. Why in the hell would you not ever touch your windows except to hold them open for about 3 inches approximately 400 times a day. I can see once, maybe twice, to see if the weather has changed. But when I look over to see what they're doing they always close the blinds really fast. Maybe they're those weirdos that like to have hang upside down in body bags from crosses and they need a place to hang the hook, but where better than the window. Obviously I'm ruining everything for them.
http://www.time.com/time/asia/features/sex/sexwhip.html
Maybe I'll leave a note explaining that I'm not offended by this. Yeah, that's what I'll do.
Okay, when I put it that way it sounds silly, maybe it is anyways, but let me put it another way: my failure to find a thesis for my paper seemed to validate that in fact, no matter how hard I tried (and god how I tried, ask Jenna how many emails I sent her complaining about my stupid essay) I was inherently incapable of producing anything of any value. Add to this that my assumption for the last few months has been that ADHD was the reason for all my ills (which of course it isn't) and this validation comes to even more value, because it proves that ADHD _wasn't_ the problem afterall, I was really just incredibly stupid.
But I've found one, I've found one of those theses that make you go "Oooh my god! That is soo good!" Yeah, I'm stoked.
On a boring note I've come to the conclusion that the neighbors are spying on me. Why in the hell would you not ever touch your windows except to hold them open for about 3 inches approximately 400 times a day. I can see once, maybe twice, to see if the weather has changed. But when I look over to see what they're doing they always close the blinds really fast. Maybe they're those weirdos that like to have hang upside down in body bags from crosses and they need a place to hang the hook, but where better than the window. Obviously I'm ruining everything for them.
http://www.time.com/time/asia/features/sex/sexwhip.html
Maybe I'll leave a note explaining that I'm not offended by this. Yeah, that's what I'll do.