Overcome by An Enormous Wave
At least once before I die, I would like to be overcome by an enormous wave of water. But I would most certainly not want to die from it, because that would most certainly mean I would drown. I do not want to drown, ever, ever. Drowning is ranked among my top fears. Asphyxiation in general is numero Uno on that list, in fact. Even right now as I just THINK about asphyxiation, I am far too aware of my own breathing, and it's making me anxious. I am also terrified, maybe even phobic, of electrical current. I don't like to be anywhere near anything that might potentially send even a minor electric shock through my body, or even just through a single finger. Don't wanna have a THING to do with it. Not ever. Blood is right up there too. I don't ever like to be aware of my pulse, lest my heart decide to be handed over from my involuntary nervous system to my voluntary nervous system, and begin to rely on me consciously making it beat. I know this is a weird thing to be afraid of, and in all likelihood it is impossible, but even so, it makes me squirm. There is a little bump on the underside of my left wrist... ooh... my right wrist as well, but somehow I never pay enough attention to my right wrist. This little bump is part of a vein that pulses whenever my heart beats, and I cannot stand to look at it, or even think of it sometimes, because it makes me too aware of my circulation for my own good. I'm going to leave this post unfinished because I ca