I'm not very good at journaling!
Top point of interest - Most people don't know this, but I dropped out of school during my senior year and never got my high school diploma .. nor did I ever get my GED. Yes, for 13 years I have somehow managed to get some pretty good paying jobs out there when I never had the education that was mandatory. Anyhoo, my point is that I am taking that step and am going to start online classes with Penn Foster and finally receive my high school diploma. I'm feeling really good about this. And of course, from there, I will hit up college although I have no idea what field is of interest to me.
My mom has a lot of health issues. She's been dealing with Diabetes, high cholesterol, high blood pressure and heart disease and a past stroke for many years now. Recently she started receiving Medicare (Praise Jesus!!) and is finally getting the thorough looking after that she needs. They recently did an MRI to detect if her memory issues are coming from when she had the stroke or if it's all connected with speech, etc. They are going to send her to a speech therapist within the next few months to see if that will be useful or if they need to do further exams to determine if she has dementia or Alzheimer's. They also began treating her edema and in the process of the exams also found that her kidney's are not functioning properly so now she must see a kidney specialist. Add on another, a noisy set of lungs which points to one of three things: cancer, COPD or emphysema. It's been an emotional time.
And of course then there's me. I'm a basket case of a mother enduring the terrible twos. I'm struggling trying to keep my wits together in dealing with Bailey. I'm desperate for a break and sadly I don't really have an outlet nor do I have a spouse who understands what I have to go through and he never offers me the chance to just go out and do something on my own. I always have to ask! Maybe it's silly that I think he should offer but I wish he would. I also wish that instead of sleeping in every day that he's home, he would get up with Bailey and allow me a break once in a while. I'm just stressed, tired, LONELY for any kind of human contact and feeling a bit down on myself. I know he's a guy and guys don't see things the way other women do.
My mom has a lot of health issues. She's been dealing with Diabetes, high cholesterol, high blood pressure and heart disease and a past stroke for many years now. Recently she started receiving Medicare (Praise Jesus!!) and is finally getting the thorough looking after that she needs. They recently did an MRI to detect if her memory issues are coming from when she had the stroke or if it's all connected with speech, etc. They are going to send her to a speech therapist within the next few months to see if that will be useful or if they need to do further exams to determine if she has dementia or Alzheimer's. They also began treating her edema and in the process of the exams also found that her kidney's are not functioning properly so now she must see a kidney specialist. Add on another, a noisy set of lungs which points to one of three things: cancer, COPD or emphysema. It's been an emotional time.
And of course then there's me. I'm a basket case of a mother enduring the terrible twos. I'm struggling trying to keep my wits together in dealing with Bailey. I'm desperate for a break and sadly I don't really have an outlet nor do I have a spouse who understands what I have to go through and he never offers me the chance to just go out and do something on my own. I always have to ask! Maybe it's silly that I think he should offer but I wish he would. I also wish that instead of sleeping in every day that he's home, he would get up with Bailey and allow me a break once in a while. I'm just stressed, tired, LONELY for any kind of human contact and feeling a bit down on myself. I know he's a guy and guys don't see things the way other women do.