It's that time of year again!
I feel like I should quote Roseanne from one of her stand-up routines: "I want everybody DEAD!"
Now, since I have a sneaky suspicion that the government lurks this site, let me say for the record that I have no desire to kill anyone. -_- I'm just severely pissed off and stressed out. So this is obviously a venting entry, if you couldn't figure that out by now.
Firstly, finals. THey're next week. That doesn't mean that they're not on my ass already. I'm studying my ass off. Stress booster #1.
Stress Booster #2: Friends. Namely online ones. Two of my friends who are my closest online have exponentially made my stress worse. One did it inadvertantly and doesn't know it. The other knows it, enjoys it, loves it, and would probably do it again in a heartbeat. I don't think anyone could make be feel better at this point. I suppose it's because, initially, I went to these two people for some chit/chat, to forget about some of my woes for a minute, and then they just made them worse. So, maybe now I've developed a phobia of talking with online people for fear that they'll just make my problems worse. And the thing that hurts the most.... both these people, I can feel it.... think I'm an asshole. They don't have to say it, because they just.... radiate it. And the fact is.... I'm NOT an asshole. Really not. Nopers, no thanks, not me. And the fact that they think that about me, bugs me. I wish I could just show them the world through my eyes, but it wouldn't make a damn bit of difference. I suppose that's the curse of them being narrow minded and over emotional. Blah. I just.... I have to learn to quit being so sensitive. I really have to stop. I can't dwell on what others think of me, and all that jazz. I have to learn to say 'fuck it'. And... I think I might. Would my world crumble if I stopped talking to these people? No. Would it hurt at first? Yes. But... life goes on. We'll see.
Stress Booster #3: School PROJECTS. No, not finals... but homework/papers. This is what really pisses me off about school. The professors KNOW we have finals. So WHY IN THE FUCK do they have all papers/projects/homeworks due the week before finals? And no, it's not like these things were assigned a month ago, and I could have turned them in a while ago. These were projects assigned LAST FUCKING WEEK. And they're difficult, they're pointless, and they do nothing but piss me off.
Stress Booster #4: Health. Is it from the influence of the other 3 factors? Maybe. Yesterday, I came down with a severe bout of Tonsilitis. This comes a mere 3 weeks before I'm scheduled to have them removed. Very funny, God. Guess the jokes on me! I literally can't swallow. Like you all know, my tonsils are huge naturally. But when inflamed.... watch out. Add to that some strep throat and a sinus infection, and you have my current situation. I went to the emergency room yesterday morning when I couldn't swallow and had difficulty breathing. They have me on so many pills it's not fucking funny. And you'd think, you'd THINK, that when you have a hard time swallowing cause of tonsilitis, that the pills they give you for it would be SMALL. Oh hell no. That would be too easy. No, I have fucking horse pills. HORSE PILLS. It's like I'm swallowing a handfull of broken glass everytime I take them, which is twice a day.
Stress Booster #5: Parents. We fight, a lot. Nuff said.
So you see, my dear readers, life is a bit shitty right now. Now if y'all will excuse me, I have an exam to study for, and some incredibly useless and mathematical ground water homework to do. Cheerio.
Now, since I have a sneaky suspicion that the government lurks this site, let me say for the record that I have no desire to kill anyone. -_- I'm just severely pissed off and stressed out. So this is obviously a venting entry, if you couldn't figure that out by now.
Firstly, finals. THey're next week. That doesn't mean that they're not on my ass already. I'm studying my ass off. Stress booster #1.
Stress Booster #2: Friends. Namely online ones. Two of my friends who are my closest online have exponentially made my stress worse. One did it inadvertantly and doesn't know it. The other knows it, enjoys it, loves it, and would probably do it again in a heartbeat. I don't think anyone could make be feel better at this point. I suppose it's because, initially, I went to these two people for some chit/chat, to forget about some of my woes for a minute, and then they just made them worse. So, maybe now I've developed a phobia of talking with online people for fear that they'll just make my problems worse. And the thing that hurts the most.... both these people, I can feel it.... think I'm an asshole. They don't have to say it, because they just.... radiate it. And the fact is.... I'm NOT an asshole. Really not. Nopers, no thanks, not me. And the fact that they think that about me, bugs me. I wish I could just show them the world through my eyes, but it wouldn't make a damn bit of difference. I suppose that's the curse of them being narrow minded and over emotional. Blah. I just.... I have to learn to quit being so sensitive. I really have to stop. I can't dwell on what others think of me, and all that jazz. I have to learn to say 'fuck it'. And... I think I might. Would my world crumble if I stopped talking to these people? No. Would it hurt at first? Yes. But... life goes on. We'll see.
Stress Booster #3: School PROJECTS. No, not finals... but homework/papers. This is what really pisses me off about school. The professors KNOW we have finals. So WHY IN THE FUCK do they have all papers/projects/homeworks due the week before finals? And no, it's not like these things were assigned a month ago, and I could have turned them in a while ago. These were projects assigned LAST FUCKING WEEK. And they're difficult, they're pointless, and they do nothing but piss me off.
Stress Booster #4: Health. Is it from the influence of the other 3 factors? Maybe. Yesterday, I came down with a severe bout of Tonsilitis. This comes a mere 3 weeks before I'm scheduled to have them removed. Very funny, God. Guess the jokes on me! I literally can't swallow. Like you all know, my tonsils are huge naturally. But when inflamed.... watch out. Add to that some strep throat and a sinus infection, and you have my current situation. I went to the emergency room yesterday morning when I couldn't swallow and had difficulty breathing. They have me on so many pills it's not fucking funny. And you'd think, you'd THINK, that when you have a hard time swallowing cause of tonsilitis, that the pills they give you for it would be SMALL. Oh hell no. That would be too easy. No, I have fucking horse pills. HORSE PILLS. It's like I'm swallowing a handfull of broken glass everytime I take them, which is twice a day.
Stress Booster #5: Parents. We fight, a lot. Nuff said.
So you see, my dear readers, life is a bit shitty right now. Now if y'all will excuse me, I have an exam to study for, and some incredibly useless and mathematical ground water homework to do. Cheerio.