my coming out party?
Hmmmmmm interesting past week it has been. Lets see, about 2 weeks ago or something, I broke up with angela. Me and her still talk and are still really good friends. And me and this chick sam have started talking and hanging out and shit. She is so confusing though. She makes me head hurt. Lol. But yea she is really funny and can keep me entertained, not to mention very attractive. But anyways….yea so if I don’t get over a 2.0 on my report card I get dropped from the play and cant go to homecoming. But I probably wont be going to homecoming anyways….and heres the long ass story…..(by the way im procrastinating my homework right now. Lol)………
So on Friday night I came out to my mom and she seemed cool about it like she didn’t care. Apparently it does bother her. Because last night, Halloween, she made it perfectly clear that she is not ok with me being gay. Because now I have to go to a psychiatrist and im grounded until semester grades come out (2 months), im grounded from the phone, and if I leave the house she is going to call the cops on me and im gunna go to juvi. And she also said that im an embarrassment to the family and that zach must be embarrassed by me and that when max goes through highschool he is going to have to hear about how his sister is a “dyke” so basically she just called me a dyke and I don’t think im a dyke but whatever. And then she said that im spreading a rumor about myself that isn’t true because I cant possibly know that im gay at age 15…but apparently I would be able to know that im straight at 15? Grr whatever. My dad has barely talked to me and he just sat there and let her say whatever she wanted to say. And she said that im telling people that im gay for attention and that when I grow up im going to regret telling people that im gay because apparently im going to grow up and be straight. And she said that she doesn’t want me telling people that im gay anymore because its not true. And she said that she is saying this because she loves me. And she said that I cant possibly know that im gay unless ive had sex. Wtf!!!!!!!! Omg I hate my mom so much its not even funny. And im on complete lock down. I mean, I cant go out, no phone, and my mom is calling the school everyday to checkup on me. I am sooooo fucking mad. I mean if there weren’t people here that I cared about that there would be no guarantees that I would still be here. My mom has no clue how much she is fucking me up.
So on Friday night I came out to my mom and she seemed cool about it like she didn’t care. Apparently it does bother her. Because last night, Halloween, she made it perfectly clear that she is not ok with me being gay. Because now I have to go to a psychiatrist and im grounded until semester grades come out (2 months), im grounded from the phone, and if I leave the house she is going to call the cops on me and im gunna go to juvi. And she also said that im an embarrassment to the family and that zach must be embarrassed by me and that when max goes through highschool he is going to have to hear about how his sister is a “dyke” so basically she just called me a dyke and I don’t think im a dyke but whatever. And then she said that im spreading a rumor about myself that isn’t true because I cant possibly know that im gay at age 15…but apparently I would be able to know that im straight at 15? Grr whatever. My dad has barely talked to me and he just sat there and let her say whatever she wanted to say. And she said that im telling people that im gay for attention and that when I grow up im going to regret telling people that im gay because apparently im going to grow up and be straight. And she said that she doesn’t want me telling people that im gay anymore because its not true. And she said that she is saying this because she loves me. And she said that I cant possibly know that im gay unless ive had sex. Wtf!!!!!!!! Omg I hate my mom so much its not even funny. And im on complete lock down. I mean, I cant go out, no phone, and my mom is calling the school everyday to checkup on me. I am sooooo fucking mad. I mean if there weren’t people here that I cared about that there would be no guarantees that I would still be here. My mom has no clue how much she is fucking me up.