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[cutygirlpsu]

So I'm suppose to be at my meeting right know but again i am stuck waiting for someone to get here so i can take them somewhere (family thing). God i hate missing chapter meetings. so I went to a party last night and i had a good time. I just hate it when people get drunk and stupid...I HATE STUPID DRUNKS...i know that i have done my share of stupid things but i never blame anyone else for my actions. I have been drinking for a long time and usually can control my behavior.....CONTROL....I hate that word... I also hate that no matter what i do it never seems good enough. I have to put my life on hold numerous times for other people and i continue to give but it's never enough..So I talked to my ex this morning/afternoon and we have had the same ongoing arguement for months now, I just cannot leave my life and become susie homemaker.. when i'm home alot i get bored, he does not understand that i have to make myself happy first.. I've always put other people first but know it's my time to be selfish......I ALSO HATE WHEN PEOPLE Lie ...If i have a problem with anyone i always try to confront them,,,other times i ignore it....IF i do something wrong i apologize....(they finally got here)
FUCK IT I GIVE UP
-V-