Damn homie...

[cuttingitout]

so its been a while for tom. ive been sulking lately so yeah thats kept me busy. too much drama for me to handle yet im the only one in this. obviously, not having a license is starting to get to me. i regret what i did evey single day. my entire family has been affected by what i did and i feel like im tearing everyone apart. i apologize to anyone if ive ignored you or been less than a friend cuz i know i have been. i am trying so hard to look on the bright side but my goodness its so dark from where im sitting. i miss laughter and feeling like im a usefull person. ive been thinking so incredibly much lately but the wierd thing is, i havent come to a single conclusion about anything at all. im attempting to make 2005 a year of change(for the better of course). but i do know one thing, i could never do anything without the people i love and respect. im such a cornball at this moment its embarrasing. i just miss my friends and i miss having fun. i think i may have been having a little bit too much fun but i could still use a little bit. i also know how many people feel like shouting "i told you so" and i deserve it. grrrr. i was finally doing pretty good and i fail myself and everyone once again. but, and a very large but of course, i guess the only way to go is up from this point and that is where i intend to go. so i guess this is an apology of some sort to those i have neglected and to those i dont deserve. anyway, im gonna be famous and rich and you will all reap the benefits. love it.

When did the boy become a man And lose his life to learn So much confusion to this plan These times are not changing This boy had learned to fail In times like these to cry seems so absurd His own life's crisis pales
In the shadow of this truly dying world These are the games we played at school Our hands raised in despair
With no exception to the rule These times are not changing