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ok so here's the stitch. I've been seeing Xavier for a little over a month and its going well. I like him- the problem is that I used to really like him. For a couple of weeks I've felt as if he wants to be friends with benefits. I tried having the "are we boyfriend and girlfriend" conversation and that didn't go well. I ended up walking away from the conversation more confused about where we are as a couple.
What he keeps saying is that we don't have to rush into being in a relationship but makes it very clear that he would like to sleep with me. Hence friends with benefits dx.
Sometimes I think its a good thing. I'm leaving in a month won't be back for 2. This would give us leeway to date other people if we wanted to and get to know one another better while being apart
However, I don't want to be "friends with benefits" with him. I want to be able to tell my friends, "he's my boyfriend, the guy in the hat, yea that's him".
Not only that but the kind of person I am; how can I sleep with him and let myself go completely to a person Im not sure wants me completely. When I think about it I want to cry. I want to feel like I can call him on good and bad days, text him stupid things about my day, and just share every part of me. But how can I do that if he doesn't want to let me in. ugh! boys
I have an incredible urge to buy one of those shirts that say, "Boys are stupid throw rocks at them"
What he keeps saying is that we don't have to rush into being in a relationship but makes it very clear that he would like to sleep with me. Hence friends with benefits dx.
Sometimes I think its a good thing. I'm leaving in a month won't be back for 2. This would give us leeway to date other people if we wanted to and get to know one another better while being apart
However, I don't want to be "friends with benefits" with him. I want to be able to tell my friends, "he's my boyfriend, the guy in the hat, yea that's him".
Not only that but the kind of person I am; how can I sleep with him and let myself go completely to a person Im not sure wants me completely. When I think about it I want to cry. I want to feel like I can call him on good and bad days, text him stupid things about my day, and just share every part of me. But how can I do that if he doesn't want to let me in. ugh! boys
I have an incredible urge to buy one of those shirts that say, "Boys are stupid throw rocks at them"