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our second show was last nite. i think it's kind of weird that we're playing shows already, our set is 6 or 7 songs with 3 covers. 2 billy bragg and a ghost mice song. but i mean people watch us and i guess they like us which is cool. we're playing anarcho-feast part 2 on wednesday. the kids get out of school early that day 'cos it's spring break so i gotta go down there as soon as i get out of work. last week jarrod promised we were gonna hang out on my birthday and go to celebration station and play Dance Dance Revolution but now anarcho-feast is going so yea big fist is doing that instead.
i'm feeling really panicky about stuff again. and that really bums me out. because i have nothing to worry about. which is slowly bringing me to the conclusion that there is something wrong with my body/mind. it's easy enough to explain or make concessions for anxiety and panic attacks when you've got legitimately stressful situations to deal with. but eliminate the stress, and then what's the motive for not being able to sleep, being incredibly nauseous, and incredibly paranoid all the time? there is none, and that points to a chemical imbalance. i should be really happy with my life right now but i'm not.
on a side note, i'm reading CHOKE and to tell the honest truth, i think it's been overhyped. at least to me, anyway. i mean, sure, it's an alright story, but i dont think it's anything quite profound... plus for some reason i get uncomfortable reading about sex? i don't know.
i'm feeling really panicky about stuff again. and that really bums me out. because i have nothing to worry about. which is slowly bringing me to the conclusion that there is something wrong with my body/mind. it's easy enough to explain or make concessions for anxiety and panic attacks when you've got legitimately stressful situations to deal with. but eliminate the stress, and then what's the motive for not being able to sleep, being incredibly nauseous, and incredibly paranoid all the time? there is none, and that points to a chemical imbalance. i should be really happy with my life right now but i'm not.
on a side note, i'm reading CHOKE and to tell the honest truth, i think it's been overhyped. at least to me, anyway. i mean, sure, it's an alright story, but i dont think it's anything quite profound... plus for some reason i get uncomfortable reading about sex? i don't know.