This may never start...
i just wrote a really long entry and my computer didnt save it! grr! okay... well, it kinda went like this... ive been noticing lately that no one ever really cares for anyone... there is always someone more important to them... like lately tony and i have been kinda talking and everything, and i thought it was cool that we became friends again and i was actually truely happy, but last night i was on the fone with cassie, and the two of them FINALLY made up, and tony was supposed to call cassie back... so we talked for like an hour and than tony kept his promise and called cassie back... (surprise!) cassie told me to hold on because she was going to tell tony she would call him back so i said fine... i waited for 10 minutes listening to complete silence and than i finally just hung up... i still, til this moment, have not gotten a call back... n i mean, it really made me cryy... because even though tony and i are cool, we dont really talk like we used to... he doesnt trust me anymore and i get the feeling he really doesnt want to be my friend and if thats the case i dnt want to stick around where im not wanted... i wanna talk to him about it but im afraid ill just get told im not wanted around and if that be the case, i could never again be happy... grr, i hate to say this, but ive not just given up on friendship... ive given up on everything thats supposed to be important to a girl... ive given up on hope, ive given up on love, and ive given up on life... i really wish i were dead right now... is there really something so wrong with that?