When you're dreaming with a broken heart, waking up is the hardest part
Well last night was interesting.
Started breaking down around 9 PM. I got so many calls and txts and just love from everybody, so I'm incredibly thankful. Plus all of you beautiful people here, gahhh, you made me practically break down again with your sweetness. I love you all. :)
When I went to bed (after 3 hours of hysterics XD), I kept repeating his words in my sleep, and then I'd wake up thinking he still loves me... talk about driving yourself insane. Wow.
So I stayed up and talked to people till 5 AM, woke up at 7 for driver's ed, and cuz I couldn't eat much breakfast (couldn't do lunch or dinner yesterday either - at all), I was really late, I got yelled at by my friend's mom who was gonna pick me up... and I immediately just broke down. My mom drove me to driver's ed, was really late with ginormous red eyes.... *sighs* Yeah, it's been a real treat. XD
...I'm hanging out with him today.
Everyone thinks it's insane, but I think it'd be nice for both of us, especially after hanging out for 135 of our 142 days together. It's too abrupt, and neither of us is really happy about it.
I completely understand it wasn't meant to be, and that his problems were (and still are) too huge for me to fix, or even deal with. So it's for the better. But it doesn't make it hurt any less.
Started breaking down around 9 PM. I got so many calls and txts and just love from everybody, so I'm incredibly thankful. Plus all of you beautiful people here, gahhh, you made me practically break down again with your sweetness. I love you all. :)
When I went to bed (after 3 hours of hysterics XD), I kept repeating his words in my sleep, and then I'd wake up thinking he still loves me... talk about driving yourself insane. Wow.
So I stayed up and talked to people till 5 AM, woke up at 7 for driver's ed, and cuz I couldn't eat much breakfast (couldn't do lunch or dinner yesterday either - at all), I was really late, I got yelled at by my friend's mom who was gonna pick me up... and I immediately just broke down. My mom drove me to driver's ed, was really late with ginormous red eyes.... *sighs* Yeah, it's been a real treat. XD
...I'm hanging out with him today.
Everyone thinks it's insane, but I think it'd be nice for both of us, especially after hanging out for 135 of our 142 days together. It's too abrupt, and neither of us is really happy about it.
I completely understand it wasn't meant to be, and that his problems were (and still are) too huge for me to fix, or even deal with. So it's for the better. But it doesn't make it hurt any less.