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im crying. lately ive been crying a lot and sometimes so many things are wrong that i dunno y im crying. right now im not sure of the reason 4 the tears. ive read all the lists and as much as they are entertaining, they are informative. there are things ive read i didnt know, was reminded of, or was already aware of. o man, everything is so diff. i wanna be 15. i wanna stop crying. right now im happy and im sad. actually, im not even sure. msaybe its official that im prob schizo. o jesus, thatd suck. i want to go back to tenth grade and the summer of 01. everything was the best during those times. for some reason i have been thinking of cindys house 4 a while now and how every time we tried 2 bond, kirelis would show up. hmm, maybe the fact we werent alone when we'd try to be is the reason y everything went wrong. not likely. it doesnt matter, its too late now anyway. we will never try to be alone again.
looking bak, i miss vanessa being the most beautiful girl i knew and kirelis having the lightest hair in the world and alejandra having to change shirts at kathy san pedros party just in case someone saw her half naked and reported it bak to leo. i miss j.lo's im real and how we'd all go crazy 4 it at a party. i miss kristina. i miss her so0o0o much. i really love that girl. o man, i am crazy. without realizing it, i have made a list in paragraph form. maybe its bc i cant even see with how hard im crying. well im not sobbing but w.e.
i miss mario, i dunno y, but i do. maybe i should tell him. or not. i feel that when i go away to college (wherever it is i go) i will lose everything. i will prob never talk to the first boy i kissed ever again. this makes me very sad. sometimes i hope i dont get accepted anywhere that way ill go to UF and i wont lose angelica. im scared of oscar being right. angelica has been my most meaningful person in high school. maybe its bc i never had a bf and u are my soul mate. i love you.
one of the things i am most grateful for is veronica's friendship being such an important part of my life. i know that if someone in this world cares for me, it is her. whether she knows it or not, me knowing she cares has gotten me through some hard nights. im glad christina is not adlin. she got over the spanish project thing in like 2 weeks. she is wonderful. she is going to harvard, even if it means i have to give up georgetown lol. im smiling now.
i know nobody knows the answers to these questions, but whats gonna happen to us after our last summer together? is kirelis gonna live behind me forever? i hope so. are the 11 sassy chiks ever going to take one last picture together w.o any stangers in it? are we ever gonna hang out one last time, just the 11 of us and if we did, would it be weird? are we still even called sassy chiks? wow, i think i am missing you guys more than i thought. i miss jenny. nana is raw, man.
not to quote demi moore in now and then or anything, but i think i have lived my life being so scared of the bad things, that ive missed out on the good. i mean it in the sense that ive been so scared to be weak that ive let ppl slip away. it doesnt matter. its too late now anyway.
looking bak, i miss vanessa being the most beautiful girl i knew and kirelis having the lightest hair in the world and alejandra having to change shirts at kathy san pedros party just in case someone saw her half naked and reported it bak to leo. i miss j.lo's im real and how we'd all go crazy 4 it at a party. i miss kristina. i miss her so0o0o much. i really love that girl. o man, i am crazy. without realizing it, i have made a list in paragraph form. maybe its bc i cant even see with how hard im crying. well im not sobbing but w.e.
i miss mario, i dunno y, but i do. maybe i should tell him. or not. i feel that when i go away to college (wherever it is i go) i will lose everything. i will prob never talk to the first boy i kissed ever again. this makes me very sad. sometimes i hope i dont get accepted anywhere that way ill go to UF and i wont lose angelica. im scared of oscar being right. angelica has been my most meaningful person in high school. maybe its bc i never had a bf and u are my soul mate. i love you.
one of the things i am most grateful for is veronica's friendship being such an important part of my life. i know that if someone in this world cares for me, it is her. whether she knows it or not, me knowing she cares has gotten me through some hard nights. im glad christina is not adlin. she got over the spanish project thing in like 2 weeks. she is wonderful. she is going to harvard, even if it means i have to give up georgetown lol. im smiling now.
i know nobody knows the answers to these questions, but whats gonna happen to us after our last summer together? is kirelis gonna live behind me forever? i hope so. are the 11 sassy chiks ever going to take one last picture together w.o any stangers in it? are we ever gonna hang out one last time, just the 11 of us and if we did, would it be weird? are we still even called sassy chiks? wow, i think i am missing you guys more than i thought. i miss jenny. nana is raw, man.
not to quote demi moore in now and then or anything, but i think i have lived my life being so scared of the bad things, that ive missed out on the good. i mean it in the sense that ive been so scared to be weak that ive let ppl slip away. it doesnt matter. its too late now anyway.