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im talkn to johnny at tha moment..(n it makes meh wonder...We have an Friendship...he makes a great friend, so then wuh changes or changed?) But newho we are talkn bout Sum Differ Subjects and one of them involve Rixx (RixxZaR Dameiion Altryoe) n now wen i think of him i feel like something is missing. like a special part of me.. we were friendz for 15 years. He Took everything he Promised to tha GRAVE..but why..Have you ever herd tha Sayin..."everything is oky in tha end..but if its not oky then its not tha end" well it is tha end and everyhting isnt oky..so now wuh is going to happen? is he guna comeback n make it ooky am i going to visit him I NEED TO NO..or is it jus not oky b/c i cant let it be, i cant forget, i cant do nething.. i cant even remember..it hurts....i wonder is it mii fault hes gone. i no i couldve prevented it.. i no i couldve. i wish i wouldve seen. i guess i blame mii self.. i am to blame everyone else does. i jus wish i could have his forgiveness. his reasons his thought of mind, jus nething to no ..he still believes in meh, he still cares fo me..n im still in his life. and i wish he knew i still love him n care for him n kept his failurs n plesures n secrets to miiself even wen it hurt me... i wish i could find out if hes mad..Rixx please dunt hate meh please dunt. please, i wish u could see or hear me.. (orr i feel kinda weird talken to noone._) but if i could tell u one thing n one thing only it would be..- i havent moved on baby im still sitten here waiting Fo this nyte hoping not to fall apart cuz im still in love wit u.- if u can even member that, it was sum of tha chorus of tha song u made me, for mah -R-B-D-
--but i guess that this is how it end.s--
The only thing i can do now tho is try not makken tha same mistake wit joseph..or johnny or neone. i take to heart n cherish everyone in mii-life. old friends, best friends, boifriends, ex boifriends.