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am i wasting my breath ?
Current mood: crushed
i have no fucking clue what you were trying to accomplish making every fucking detail of our demise public. Did it make you feel like a man to publicize my emotions? How could you tell thousands of people, as loud as you could, on stage, with words so harsh they almost knocked me over, tell them things you couldn't and didnt tell me. I was fucking clueless. All i ever wanted from you was you, i gave you nothing but all of me. We went through so much , and you told the world our story. Was i worth a fucking hit cd? How could you avoid me, I don't need you. I dont think I ever did. All i wanted to know is that you were ok. that you are ok. i hate myself for still caring about you. you were right, you fucking broke my heart. and now you are just running away. Well I hope one day you are brave enough to look me into the eyes again, me the person who was your best friend and tell me how it all fell apart. Was I blind? Cause I'd do anything to hear it directly from your mouth then in a catchy chorus. I can't believe you did this. Dont worry I've moved on and my life will be lived. I hope only for the best , you are selfish and it destroyed you and me , and most importantly us. You couldn't understand my devotion. It wasn't because of your band, or your makeup, or anything you did but exist. The cd was my answer, everyone knew but me didn't they? How could you do that to me? Bring me across the fucking country for half a month of my life only to break every promise that escaped your poison lips. Well, This is my final goodbye to you mr.albright, my self composed letter of despair. I'm absolutley crushed. Just liked you envisioned. I won't ever regret spokane and the memories, your face is forever etched in my eyelids, and haunts me every day. I'd do anything to forget your smile. The realness i felt with you. I can't regret it. you are truly an amazing wonderful man, that came into my life at the wrong time. I know i never did wrong to you. And maybe you can for take my feelings into consideration, to my face. with compassion, and quit being a coward. because this is something i never deserved. i encouraged your band without knowing anything about it and you fucking make a song about my heartbreak. Thanks for exposing me. And yourself. It was real. I know I loved you. Goodbye joshua. I dont expect a response, but one would always be welcome. ... goodbye
Current mood: crushed
i have no fucking clue what you were trying to accomplish making every fucking detail of our demise public. Did it make you feel like a man to publicize my emotions? How could you tell thousands of people, as loud as you could, on stage, with words so harsh they almost knocked me over, tell them things you couldn't and didnt tell me. I was fucking clueless. All i ever wanted from you was you, i gave you nothing but all of me. We went through so much , and you told the world our story. Was i worth a fucking hit cd? How could you avoid me, I don't need you. I dont think I ever did. All i wanted to know is that you were ok. that you are ok. i hate myself for still caring about you. you were right, you fucking broke my heart. and now you are just running away. Well I hope one day you are brave enough to look me into the eyes again, me the person who was your best friend and tell me how it all fell apart. Was I blind? Cause I'd do anything to hear it directly from your mouth then in a catchy chorus. I can't believe you did this. Dont worry I've moved on and my life will be lived. I hope only for the best , you are selfish and it destroyed you and me , and most importantly us. You couldn't understand my devotion. It wasn't because of your band, or your makeup, or anything you did but exist. The cd was my answer, everyone knew but me didn't they? How could you do that to me? Bring me across the fucking country for half a month of my life only to break every promise that escaped your poison lips. Well, This is my final goodbye to you mr.albright, my self composed letter of despair. I'm absolutley crushed. Just liked you envisioned. I won't ever regret spokane and the memories, your face is forever etched in my eyelids, and haunts me every day. I'd do anything to forget your smile. The realness i felt with you. I can't regret it. you are truly an amazing wonderful man, that came into my life at the wrong time. I know i never did wrong to you. And maybe you can for take my feelings into consideration, to my face. with compassion, and quit being a coward. because this is something i never deserved. i encouraged your band without knowing anything about it and you fucking make a song about my heartbreak. Thanks for exposing me. And yourself. It was real. I know I loved you. Goodbye joshua. I dont expect a response, but one would always be welcome. ... goodbye