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so everything keeps falling apart, then coming back together and I can't fucking stand it.
I'm back at my parents house while i attempt to make sense of my fucking life.
I have no job, and 130$ to my name.
I am supposed to go to Spokane on april 4th or 5th. my mom said she'd help me buy the ticket .
So i have that out of the way. but now the rest of my life is still out of place, if i live with Leah how will i save up money to move to wa for good in august? fuck.
my brain really hurts. If i was rich, it would solve fucking everything. Money is such an issue, its not fair how some people never have to think twice about money, i wish i was one of those people but sadly i'm not and never will be unless i hit the damn lottery. if I had like 800$ my life would be set, and all my stresses would be gone.
but how do i get a job, when i have no ccar and dont know how to drive, and leah lives nowhere walking distance, and neither does my mom. I hate life being dead ended.
and that trip is crucial to the rest of my life.
Its going to decide if I want to move there, go to school there, start my life there with Joshua.
It's the scariest decison i've ever had to make in my life.
Everything I know is in ohio. my friends, family, my life.
People move all the time, and change, am i really ready for this.
I really think I am josh gives me a feeling of happiness i have never had or even dreamt of having. I think its worth it.
Am i really ready to call Spokane Washington my home.
i guess we'll see.
I'm back at my parents house while i attempt to make sense of my fucking life.
I have no job, and 130$ to my name.
I am supposed to go to Spokane on april 4th or 5th. my mom said she'd help me buy the ticket .
So i have that out of the way. but now the rest of my life is still out of place, if i live with Leah how will i save up money to move to wa for good in august? fuck.
my brain really hurts. If i was rich, it would solve fucking everything. Money is such an issue, its not fair how some people never have to think twice about money, i wish i was one of those people but sadly i'm not and never will be unless i hit the damn lottery. if I had like 800$ my life would be set, and all my stresses would be gone.
but how do i get a job, when i have no ccar and dont know how to drive, and leah lives nowhere walking distance, and neither does my mom. I hate life being dead ended.
and that trip is crucial to the rest of my life.
Its going to decide if I want to move there, go to school there, start my life there with Joshua.
It's the scariest decison i've ever had to make in my life.
Everything I know is in ohio. my friends, family, my life.
People move all the time, and change, am i really ready for this.
I really think I am josh gives me a feeling of happiness i have never had or even dreamt of having. I think its worth it.
Am i really ready to call Spokane Washington my home.
i guess we'll see.