Uh oh...
ok, since my computer froze right before i entered in my entry, let's see if i can do this again...
life is full of surprises...
last night i got a call some time after 1am. it was the same person as the call that i got at 4am another night. he told me how much he missed me, and wanted me, and that he was sorry about last year and other stuff that i won't say out loud. he wants to meet my parents and visit me at home (got serious about comming over in the middle of the night). we finished talking sometime after 3am. he knows about Parker too, and swears to beat him up.
that's only the start of it. he wants to meet me at registration. well, come to find out, Parker will be waiting for me there too. he's going with his brother to registration. so yea, the two of them will be there looking forward to seeing me. shit.
my honesty has not been able to dissuade either of these people. i have nothing to offer in a relationship except for my loyalty, love, and support. and this is the first time ever in my life that i've said how i felt from the beginning and not been rejected or forgotten. i mean, both of them know 1. i can't date, 2. if i were to date they would have to have the approval of my family, and 3. i'm a fricken virgin. yea, damn straight!
now, i'm torn. again. both of these guys have really hit me hard. and i don't want to get hurt again. i'm so scared of that. i don't know what to do. i just hope that all goes well without confrontation between the two of them.
well, one hour till then...pray for me!!! toodles!
life is full of surprises...
last night i got a call some time after 1am. it was the same person as the call that i got at 4am another night. he told me how much he missed me, and wanted me, and that he was sorry about last year and other stuff that i won't say out loud. he wants to meet my parents and visit me at home (got serious about comming over in the middle of the night). we finished talking sometime after 3am. he knows about Parker too, and swears to beat him up.
that's only the start of it. he wants to meet me at registration. well, come to find out, Parker will be waiting for me there too. he's going with his brother to registration. so yea, the two of them will be there looking forward to seeing me. shit.
my honesty has not been able to dissuade either of these people. i have nothing to offer in a relationship except for my loyalty, love, and support. and this is the first time ever in my life that i've said how i felt from the beginning and not been rejected or forgotten. i mean, both of them know 1. i can't date, 2. if i were to date they would have to have the approval of my family, and 3. i'm a fricken virgin. yea, damn straight!
now, i'm torn. again. both of these guys have really hit me hard. and i don't want to get hurt again. i'm so scared of that. i don't know what to do. i just hope that all goes well without confrontation between the two of them.
well, one hour till then...pray for me!!! toodles!